Down the rabbit hole

For A Song!

2005-12-21T06:51:00.000-08:00

Pls Tag Ur opinions ya?
And Try doin too! The Arrangement should b in order-what order up to u ?lol.
Haf fun!lol.

1. Qing
2. Ghou Hua
3. John Chan
4. Aud
5. Mark Teo
6. Chris
7. Joel
8. Ber
9. Jan
10. Kel

How long have you known 1? 2-2.5 yrs? lol.
Have you been to 8's house? Yeps!lol.veri fun place!!!Love to drive when I’m in there.lol.
Do you like 6?. He he he wat do u think?lol.
Are 4 and 10 friends? Nopes,n I doub they ever will be! lol
Have you been to 3's house? Nopes, but I sure wish to!
Would you ever live with 5?! HELL NO!!! lol. Regardless of all the ..
When was the last time you talked to 4?. Just half an hour ago..lol,why?lol.
Would 1 and 6 make a good couple? Nopes.. 1 needs more.. sry 6
How about 8 and 10?. Now that’s a possibility…
Have you ever dreamt about 2? Nopes,not telepathic yet..lol.
Have you ever slept with 9? Hmmz… define sl..lol.Ask her?lol ;)
Is 7 attractive? *Wolf Whistles… Ask 9?
Do you love 4? Yep,Would die for her if necessary.
Would you ever cuddle with 1? Veri good question…No ideas though..
Would you ever kiss 3? LOL.Beyond CPR… Na Da!! I’d Be custra..by his gf..lol.
What do you like best about 6? His big fat D**k..LOL.But more of his being a Bro n a great friend.yeps.lol.
Have you ever had a crush on 1, 3, 5, 7, or 9? Yeps n yeps.lol.The rest r not,though I won’t tell which yep goes to who…LOL.
Do you ever wish you never met 3? Hell No!! 3’s THE MAN! Yeah he is!
How did you meet 5? Through sch?lol.
Has 2 seen you naked? NO?!?!
Have you seen 2 naked?.Hell NO?!?!
Who is taller? 5 or 10?. Tie?lol.
Have you met 4's family? Yeps!!We even haf many meals together!
Would you ever go out with 3? Yeps!!!Wish could do it more often with him n 2..
Do you think 7 is funny? In his own way yeah..lol.
What about 6? Funny? Hmmz..lol.He has ahis moments ; )
Where was the last place you went with 1?. Cyber Space?lol.
When was the last time you hung out with 2? Abt 5 days ago? Whish could do it every day sia! lol. Damn fun…
Where do you want to take 3? To Paradiz Centre! Yeah!lol
When do you want to see 4? All time time to make sure she’s safe n sound?lol.
Would 5 and 6 make a good couple? Mayb u know…lol.U know… Birds of the same feather.. Though their birds.. LOL.
Have 7 and 8 ever kissed?. Wow… Have They ?!?!?! MUST SAY K!!!!!
Would 9 or 10 ever live together?. U know.. they just might.. We’ll see?lol.
Would you let 3 have your baby? Hmms… LOL. If he coul.. LOL
Have you ever told 1 a deep dark secret? Yeps.many n she’s just the best!
Has 1 ever told you a secret?. Yeps! Lol.
Would you runaway with 6? Depends on where He’s headed..lol
Who was the last person 9 kissed? 10 mayb??
Who was the last person 7 hugged?. 8 or 9? We’ll never know… ; )
What word or phrase does 5 say alot? RIBBIT!lol.
Does 6 make you laugh? Yeps! lol.. I know it sounds wrong.. lol.
Does 2 ever annoy you? Well.. there was this one time .. N this other time… N another time.. LOL. Well, actually, No. lol.
When did you last call 4? Just Abt 40 plus mins ago.. lol.
Do you ever talk to 3 online? Yeps! Though he’s real laggy…
What about 2?. Yeps! He too!!! Sighs..
Does 10 smell bad?.lol..i’ll do that when next I see him?lol
Does 1 smell nice? Hmmz.. I’ll find out soon ?lol, Guess is … XD
Are 1 and 8 friends? Nopes, I strongly Don’t think so.. lol.

FREEDOM

2005-11-16T18:01:00.000-08:00

Zion!
The war!
It is OVER!
Neo has Done it!

Neo's son [The Matrix Revloutions]

It has been about 2 months since i last updated, and for all of my readers, i'm back!till next year, and the year after that..lol.

Another herdle in the life of which yet another guy has been crossed!As i type this after abt jus 3 hrs of sleept that makes me feel so much better then the previous 6-8 a day for the stretch,no idea why but i think it has something to do wif a insane surge of some whatever chemicals in my bloodstream.Insane and as dangerously sounding to some thing most gals go through like once a month..I'm a ok! lol.

I actually ment to get this entry out before i flew off and got back home again from china..But circumstances didn't allow it.6 Hours before the flight, i had to rush down to collect the Nano.A veri tiring yet neccesay episode.The name befitting to its craft,the archillies heel being the protection needed for it.This was done wif onli 5-6 hrs of slp for the 2 days,ever since the end of the A s.for the funniest reason,fatigue nor exhaustion seemed nowhere near.Nowhere at all.It was like i was Supperman and i could just live on a bear 3 meals a day.Not that i did skip any,though i can't reali recall..

Jetting off,i found little sleep on the plane itself.lol.Too much too much to watch.2 movies and den i had to sleep,for fear of really scumming to exhaustion,my arch enemy,my Nemesis.A bear 2 hrs later was awaken,breakfast was served ,fan choi,another half movie and Hello Mao!

Transit was quite efficient.It is only when one does not use Changi does one realise why Changi is CHANGI.Also when in China please ensure that one stands at the front of the unloading belt.One's possesions and luggage tend to be picked out and dumped in stacks along with many of other people's unknowns...I guess that there are always veri abled body people who are ever willing to lend a hand in taking off ur luggage from the belt though one would wish that they'd announce that they were doing so..[its the though that matters i know.]lol.Imigration was interesting as well.The number of counters cattering to the international side was..Well when the queues stretch to the domestic side...

BeiJing is colder than ShangHai.Trust me.Once one gets aclimatised to BeiJing,ShangHai just feels like a shopping mall.

Day 01

Clearing customs, we were then ushered to our home away from home,Hotel New York.Breakfast awaited, though measely in selection the quantity was applaudable,if but a little cold as we had arrived at almost lunch time.Then it was time for the Long March.lol.Dropped off at Tian An Meng square,we had the details about it all recitted,no mentioning of its sorid past,but it was to be expected..From there, we made our way to The Forbbiden City, Gu Gong Cheng , Zhi Jing Cheng.There i met up wif President Bush.lol.Actually more like his entourage.Secret service men,chinese cermonial soilders and the US Airforce.All there an hour before his arrival, of which he only took 10 mins to pass hurriedly through...After that, we continued into the gardens behind the Forbidden City.A man-made mountain and a lake awaited.As we strolled down the lane in the frigit air,pecimons hundreds of them,suspended in motion in the now leafless trees,awaited us.Their bright orange colours contrasting veri nicely against the now fast darkening azure sky.The emeral green grass untouched by the frost,couppled by firs,a really picture perfect sight.After that,we were ushered into the bus and another mouth watering meal awaited us.Every meal for the following days was usually 10 coursed,with meats,fish and vegetables.Quite a spread.Back at the hotel,the tube revealed a Soccer match,live.Arsenal Vs Totterham Hot Spurs.3-2.On that high note,sleep came like a long seperated lover.

Day 02

Breakfast was the usual spread as the day before.Quite an ordeal though,but when in Rome,do as what the romans do.lol.After the sorid meal,the next item was the Great Wall.A section at the least.But still counts!!lol.When we arrived,it was a mountainous section.The sceney being breath taking,if but a little towards hypothemic temperatures along the way...lol.It was a fantastic climb though.The steps being highly uneven and the steepness ever increasing, it felt like heaven!Stairmaster eat your heart out.lol.Uneven being that there were many a depression on the steps.So the tendency to slip and fall is real.Very very real.Also met a whole lot of MGS gals there...they were...lol.Let ur imagination run lah.lol.
though nothing happened of course.After that,a nice lunch awaited.10 coursed,no less.lol.Then it was off to the tombs!lol.Ming Dynasty tombs.the day ended wif a short trip to a local mall.And shortly after that,The Spanish Liga!lol.

Day 03

Skipping the o so farmiliar breakfast,the first stop was the sky temple,used only by the emperor.The entire area encomapssing about 10 square kilometers,hundreds of pine trees awaited,each at least 200 yrs old and above,they lined the two sides of the broad marble paved pathway,paved to allow about two M1 Abram tanks to pass through unhinded.After the entire length had been traversed,the royal gardens awaited behind.ThePlaced filled with people of all ages,though manily the elderly,the sound of gusty singing greeted the group.The thing was,it wasn't some well trained chior of St Micheal's,nor some school's but rather any and everyone.lol.Young and old,all just took a score sheet and sang their hearts out.No limits,no holds just pure pathriotism at its best?lol.It was also in the gardens that i witness the scared game of PINMINGTON being played...This secrective and ancient game was first concived about...lol.two years ago.lol.In the 4th floor class room next to the lift,the home away from home for the 38 students of the Best Class Of 2003.lol.The two that played the game were two elderly women.I tried taking a shot of their prowness but it proved futile due to their...lol.Safe to say,the true art of that game stays safe with the True Gentlemen Of ...You guys know who you are.lol.A short stop at a fresh water pearl farm.Then it was time for shopping...lol.In the shoppin centres where one can bargain, one must harden ur heart.When the price is 220,ur price must be one third.Nothing more.An even then,one can be sure that they are still making a killing.The details,if one is really interested ,just ask me.lol.Not at liberty to say all.lol.Dinner came and a Pekin Duck awaited.At the end?I prefer the Sinaporean "imitation"more.lol.

The remainding days,they just seem quite the blur.lol.The basics was that i have carried out what a friend of mine has asked.lol.Be sure to heed my advice on the skills of the exchange!The consequences of not doing so would be an empty wallet..lol.

Centering

2005-08-27T11:20:00.000-07:00

Give it all up to him.
Jus give it up
give it up, All to him!

Angel of the blues.

Hey there everyone! After my two coming three months hiatus, i've finally managed to squeeze some time! At last! lol.

Was watching "touched by an Angel". Thats where the quote came from. Sounds corny? But i think it makes sense? The explaination was that, sometimes in life? We love things so much that we can't bear to leave them or to let go.And yet, they are still slipping away no matter how hard we may try to hold on.Being human, we will tend to blame God for all the stuff that is happening.
What would the father of an abandoned baby boy,who has raised his son for the past 7 years, finally is finalising the adoption, when the child's birth mother comes in to contest for custordy...
He's been a good father, a real good one, and yet he knows that it is time for his son to leave him...The mother having her own reasons for he abondendment,is equally sorry to have to put the father through all this...

This is when they realise that sometimes, all we need to do is to trust in the Lord.True, God Promises life!But he never said it would be easy,never said that it would be one without tears,without sorrow,he never said it would be easy.But he did promise, that if we but try?Try to make it right?We we will be able to succeed.But when we try?we should also remeber him, and that it is only through him that we wil be able to make things right.
To give it up to him,to give it all up.If we but give him all our burdens, The Lord promises to take it all away and then give us back what we want?[Infered i supposed?lol.]But the main point is that it is only through surrending to him all our pain and sorrows,all our wants and desires and to let him do all that for us that we will be able to go on through life.
Life is sometimes unfair,but it is times like this that we should remember whom we should always put our trust in.In whom we should always rely on.In Whom we should have faith in.It may seem totally senseless, but God holds us in the palm of his hand.Everytthing that happens happens for a reason.But one thing that we must remember?The Lord never wants or desires us to be hurt.That is the work of the other.God HEALS!GOD SAVES!

There are no conincidenceses with God.

[To all non Christians, i hope that i didn't bore u!!! lol. But i did want to remember this a lot... lol. Hope u'll ask more abt all this? I'll be onli too glad to ans ya qurries! : ]

We will run and not grow weary,
for God will be our strength,
and we will fly like the eagle,
we will rise once again.

We will rise again.

Here!

2005-06-13T07:23:00.001-07:00

Outta the darkness and into the nigh!
When the morning comes, I will be alright!
In the morning!

Finally, doin an entry since i have no idea when. lol. I know. I've been busy, depressed and for a while, totally hooked to GB!

OK, an update on mi mental health. I've more or less, gotten over some very obvious facts in life. Lol. feelin much better and also much clearer on mi overall priorities and who my friends are. Glad that i learnt at such a small price. Apparently, being nice to all, is not realli that worthwhile though i won't allow myself to turn into the negative of what i was. I'll jus have to learn to love with my eyes open. And NOT that kinda Romantic love!!! Out of the ashes i have seen the my friends. Not too bad a trade! Not too bad at all. Thanks God!

On, the other front, i have to begin to start my engine! lagging behind due to a very apparent lack of will, there is only one clear course in front of me. GENLTEMAN! START YOUR ENGINES! Once i get my act together, this baby is gonna blaze! lol.
ok, shall end off about here. Lol. Don't beat me! lol.;)

Awaken

2005-04-24T07:24:00.000-07:00

No one can walk so long in the shawdow that they cnnot return to the light

Ingar of House Shinearnea.

As i type this entry, i have realise that i am still in puberty. Indeed, chemical imbalances and the silliness of miself have led to an array of veri weird and silly events. Past entries are a testimony to that silliness.

SOmetimes, when u try hard to aplease everyone, u end up upsetting yourself. Lol. Selfish? Maybe... But, at least u stay true to at least yourself... True? No? LOl.

As i worri for mi jie, i realli do, i Pray that she'll turn out stronger from all the crap that she's been having and having to handle. God! Help her! We make mistakes all through our life, but please don't take those against us! We are onli human! AS is she! Pls help her!

I have also learnt that it is silly of mi to think too much into other's affairs. Bein silly and all, i sometimes just simply want to know too much. Not cause i am a busybody, but cause i care. lol. being out of the loop= not knownin what is going on, has become the norm.
Initially, i had been pissed and hurt. lol. read previous. But now, i'm ok ![i hope]I think i'll revert back to mi oldself. Indiviual. Being otherwise is just veri veri tiring. lol.

Anyway, to mi dear reader, pls, don't take everything to heart. All that is written here is simply mi bitchin... Something that i never planned to would do... lol. But here i am ... sigh... As i end this entry, know this : that i won't give up trying to be an idiot, caring for others, regardless of how silly and un wanted it maybe, and trying to be a better man. Thank u .

Re-awakened

2005-04-05T03:42:00.000-07:00

Jesus : Simon Son of John, Do You Love Me?
Peter : I do Lord.
Jesus : Take care of my flock
Jesus : Simon Son of John, Do You Love Me?
Peter : I do Lord.
Jesus : Love My People
Jesus : Simon Son of John, Do You Love Me?
Peter : Lord you know that i love you.
Jesus : Take care of my sheep.

This week has been one of quite a bit of saddness for myself. The Holy Father, MY HOLY FATHER, Pope John Paul II has gone on. Into the warm embrace of The Heavenly Father. Welcome him LOrd!

As i type this, i feel the surge of the same whirlpool of emotions that i have been feeling the whole week since i learnt of his passing on. Pride, greif, happiness, uncertainty, hope, fear, joy, sorrow. On one hand i feel that it is a great lost for humanity with his going.He was elected a conservative Pope, but he turned out to be one of the most revolutionary. How will we find another like him? Actually a rathersilly question. lol.

Then on the other, there is this sense of pride. A very stong sense of that. Proud to be a Catholic. A ROMAN CATHOLIC. How many can boast that it was becasue of one man of thier faith, that so many in the world would shed tears, send prayers, greive... Who else but a TRUE man of GOD could possiblily unite so many leaders, nations, people under his vision of World Peace? Who could, with his passing, make feuding states's leaders come to the same area with a common vision even with their mountains of differences? How many could ? How many could even get religious leaders of so many other religions to gather to offer their condolences? Even Muslim Leaders! How many? How many indeed!

Through this whole week, i now realise that i have been feeling this sense of deep sorrow. The human part of me just wants him here. Funny, as Ber and i were disscussing this afternoon, YOU DON'T MISS A PERSON TILL HE'S GONE. lol. It realli makes loads of sense here. It is even more laughable that while he was still alive, i really could not be bothered that much about him. In fact i totally took him for granted. Undoubted, one could say that i never got to see him in person, neither have i got the chance to experience his talks and all. But still, it is a lousy excuse. I could have gone on the web. lol.God, forgive me.

Henc i suppose, in a way, that explains why i'm like actin a bit more weirdly these few days. I have been letting things that would usually not disturb me, disrupt me, reacting to the usual pile of crap i get from people. Being pettie? maybe. i won't deny. There is no point. But then again, there is also another thing known as a limit. nevermind.

Hence this has also some how brough mi to a point of asking myself, am i being too nice a guy? Am i caring too much? Why do i do all this? lol. Questions of which i have been searching for ans. lol. Searching for such ans amongst the people that i spend about 6hrs with a day is quite dumb. There is no point. lol. To seek understanding, one has to be understood. lol. Something that i have realised, is not likely to happen. hence i realise that i have been rather a stupid son. I have been treating my family like dirt while i treat my friends like family. lol.

I have been hurting mi family while i get hurt by my "friends". Not all, but some. It is so ironical! Hence i have decided that i shall turn it the other way. No more shall i allow my stupidity to keep hurting my family. I should just dish all that crap out on accuqaintances.

Am i changing? ya. i think so. is it for the better ? Well, lol, depends on who u are ... though not all need to worry. I'll still listen. Though i shan't be like the past. There is little there that rings true to me anymore. Many things have changed, i just pray that i'll not lose my true self as i unload my emotions and toughen up.Being me, isn't good enough. It is down right silly. God Help me. Amen.

Whrilling

2005-03-03T03:51:00.000-08:00

Ok, i know that it has been a while sicne i last updated, ya ya ...

Mainly, after a long while of muling over my insecurities and the ever present hopes and fears, dreams and nightmares, i have come to a conclusion. That is that one of the most powerful things that one can do, is to forgive.

When one is rejected, well, it sucks to the core. If one's intensions are true, and good, then being pushed away is all the more sucky. lol. The best part is if you shared and then got pushed. But hell, well, the fault is also sometiems ya own. IF you are over-eagar to help, then you are to be blammed for the result. Sometimes, it is realli better to be totally non-challent at all.

In either event, it is highly likely that one will end up with a sort of resent to that party that rejected that extended helping hand/shoulder to lean on... It is only human! Then the funniest part comes. Sooner or later, due to the amount of care still present for the person in question, one will end up wodnering why isn't the relaionship at least being maintained? Why is it growing cold... ? Then sooner or later, then the answer should dawn...

The truth should become apparent at that point. The realisisation that in any realtionship, there is always a must for exchange. If it is only one person doing all the giving and the other doing all the taking, then sooner or later, it is bound to die. If relationships are like plants then this giving and taking would be like taking water and giving air.
Give water = take air => + no new water ==> No more air. [Plant dies.]
Simple.

As such,many have come to realise, that sometimes, forgetting is not always the best way.lol. To improve, the situation, then you need to forgive the person who rejected ya help.
Undoubtedly that sounds very much like bigotry. That one should forgive someone whom did what anyone would do due to one's constant pressuring sounds like that of the opposite party's job scope... lol.

But still, you have to rem, the person onli did the pressuring due to care and concern for the other! True! It was TOO MUCH! But it was only cause the person cared... Too much? Well, is the Tsunami aid TOO MUCH? Would one rather none at all? Cause that can be done too... lol. Just check the person giving's attitude... lol. nevermind.

However, in the end, there is a limit to what one can do for a realtionship, ANY TYPE!, to work! if the other party feels that one is too much, then sorry compadre... lol. Ya services are at end. Pls don't be a pest any more. lol.

Sad but ture. Sad but true.

Another of the main principles that i've been living my life by, is that if you love someone, then you just want that someone to be happy. Its realli simple huh? But when you come and think about it, it means that you will accept the person's wishes and choices.
[ Love in this case is not onli limited to the romantic/physical type but also that between siblings/friends/animals/... ]

But then, thatsfor another day. No more energy to be philosiphical. lol. Nighs!

Trinity : Neo, this is where i stop.
Trinity : I can't go any further with you.
Neo : Why?
*Neo feels the Iron bars that have pierced through two lungs and the forearms.

The Matrix : Revolutions

Release

2005-02-22T21:02:00.000-08:00

DUe to the inablity of the blogger to contiue rational and unemotional trains of though, he shall now just throw some crap that has been cycling though that thick skull of his.

Food for though.

-Is it possible to cause more harm then good when one tires their most sincer efforts to help another? Lol.

-Love is ever more destructive then hate.

-No good deed ever goes unpunished.

-Over-eagerness and stupidity are one and then same.

-Helping those that don't want it is not helping. LOL-> its causing more trouble to the person.

-Holding a whole lot of such stuff in your head isn't the stuff that helps one sleep. lol. -> its the stuff of nightmares.

-Bo Chuping seems the best way to live life.

-Changing seems the only way to ensure that one isn't going to be plauged by nighs of disturbed sleep and silly thoughs nor anxiety.

-Thinking that after all of this, this blogger won't be the same. He can't. He wants to, but he CANNOT. There doesn't seem to be another alternative.

After letting all that stuff out, this blogger shall return to his cave of voices and continue fighting some old demons that he must face. In order to win, the only was is to change. A change that isn't to his liking, but it has to be done. Sadly.

Policy change...

Not giving a shit abt anything anymore unless approached. lol. Life, i think, will be much simpler from now on.

Aaah-ah

2005-02-19T16:09:00.000-08:00

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah,ah-ah,ah-ah,aaah-ah
Ah-ah,ah-ah,ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
and where I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I walk alone

Ah-ah,ah-ah,ah-ah,aaah-ah
Ah-ah,ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I walk alone

Quicki

2005-02-13T22:58:00.000-08:00

As i enter this post in a short span of five mins, i onli wanna reflect on the first few days of CNY.

The festival having its roots deep in chinese culture, has survived through out the eons by way of careful preservation of countless generations of chinese, faithful to this tradition due to their up-bring. However, chinese, being one myself, have this urge to win. To be able to profit from almost any venture should they choose it. Chinese New Year as such is not not spared.

In China, certain provinces do not allow the officials to be visited wby visitors bearing gifts. Why? lol. How should i know? But then again... lol. Refer to the previous para if you, good reader, does not get the implied meaning.

Shops open till late, sales being prevailent pre and post of this festival. Its true meaning, i sthink was more of spreading the goodwill. Yeah, i suppose SALES do spread the good will, lol, more towards the side of the shopkeeper's direction... Regardles...

In the end, i leave with this though, if the hype of CNY is purely commercial, why is it your realatives and relations are so happy to see you and give you the Ang Baos? However, if it is purely the spread of good will and celebration, why is it that everyone you know, of the same age, often compares and asks around about how much you have received from your loving relations? Is Money a testiment of how much one is loved?

Have a good CNY. lol. [ Not cycnical laughter! i just wanted to ponder on these questions. ]

Reflecting

2005-02-05T23:32:00.000-08:00

5th February 2005

Morpheus : What I see are two ships and two different direction.

The Matrix : Revolution

Dear reader, as it would now seem rather apparent, I seem only able to blog like once a week. Reason is that life, is being more and more… Freeing in a certain sense. Free of time for relaxation, free of freedom, free of being carefree and relative enjoyment. For some reason, I still feel rather not at peace with myself.

Forgiveness it seems, must come from more then one source. Besides from the person you offended, it must also come from within. However, being such an arse… I don’t seem that able to find that inner peace. Funny. Lol. People who know me as such a carefree and jovial person[ ok, lame as well ] not being able to do such a thing. Weird, but true. Perhaps redemption will come soon. That inner peace is a rather hard thing to achieve, but by GOD’s infinite Grace, I pray I will achieve it.

Another issue at hand would be that of the dropping of a subject. Due to the school’s interesting logic, it has decreed that we make up our minds within the following three weeks. I mean two. This week is over.

Thus with this interesting choice, I have had to do a bit of soul searching and also more of like a path plotting. Also a much needed review of the various subjects that I already own. The conclusion was quite simple. In order to achieve my goals, I would need to achieve just, JUST three As. A as in the grade, not the subject type or category. Thus having four As is not really a prerequisite. Rather, having just three good ones would be the preferred choice. As such, with a fair shot at my promotional results, I feel that it would seem that a choice will have to be made.

In the promotional results, I have grades that would ensure that I would be an entrepreneur. Reason being that I wouldn’t be able to enter any university. Lol. With only 8 months left till the BIG one, it only seems logical to simply drop one of these subjects, since I am totally unwilling and against skipping my CCA trainings. This thus leads to one of the most interesting questions. Which one to drop?

Of the four, Econs, maths, Physics, Chemistry, the sub that I have spent the most amount of time in is Chemistry. However, the subject that I performed the most poorly in would also be that subject, but an O grade. The next subject that I spent the next greatest amount of time on would be Maths and Econs. Both were at least better then chem. In terms of their showings. Maths scoring a C and Econs just scraping through with an E, but that was expected due to the desperate notes reading about only a week before the exam and not doing anything else the entire year. Even physics, which I spent the least amount of time on was able to produce an E!

However, in defense, I must say that it is Chemistry that is one of my main interests. But the results are not really helping to prove to me that it is justified to spend that much time on the subject. Why would one waste time on a subject that is simply not showing any results?!?!?

Thus it seems rather apparent. The dropping of a subject seems not be a matter of consideration, but more of like a matter of time. Oh, and TO HELL WITH PRIDE! YEAH! Lol.

On to more happy matters, I have just emptied my wallet. It would seem that this year, I am never able to save even more then $5 per week. Lol. Reason? Lol. Due to knowing more people and knowing those that I have know for a year better and closer, birthdays just seem to keep coming! Hooray! For the birthday person! Lol. And the retail shops. Lol. However, I am truly OK with the spending! I really am! The only thing is, I just hope that person likes what he/she is getting. And just a small word of thanks. No need for a big flashy present in return. THOUGH, it will be deeply appreciated of course. Lol.

Oracle : It seems that everytime we meet, I have nothing but bad news for you.

The Matrix : RELOADED

Bo Jua! Din Xi Gi!

2005-01-29T23:21:00.000-08:00

We had an ardous day of collecting newspapers and other items from the entire of Toa Payoh. The School had chosen this constituency for the replenishing of the Pocket Money fund. Well, it was for a good cause anyway.

The day started out with reporting to school at 8am. WOw. FUn! lol. After doing a practical for 2 hrs, in qhich we had to do the same thing twice just for different substances, we set off for Toa Payoh.

Finally reaching the block; 143 after a good 2nd breakfast, we set off to our task. The block at hand was one of the old ones, a 10 storied structure, with a lift that only serviced three floors. The Appartments there were 2 or three roomed. The condition of the entire place was a bit off colour...

The task was however rather fun. It reminded the majority that had come, how we had to be when we were Ogls. A great feeling indeed. However, the situation was rather saddening. The number of repossed flats, seemed to be at a ratio of 1 is to 3. or 5. i'm not too clear. Those that answered our calls were mostly the aged. Nothing wrong there, just that they seemed very lonely. I just couldn't help but feel hapless and also a bt abashed for taking what little they offered.

There was also a Lost PERSONS Posters at the ground floor. It very exsistence was quite a surprise for myself. I had never seen one such as it till then. Majority of those featured were the aged. There was only one young gal, and she was found. A relief. However, about the aged, there was not a piece of information. The dates suggested that they have been at Limbo for a VERY VERY long time.

As i looked at the pile that we had collected, i felt that even though it didnot seem to amount to much, it was still a lot in the eyes of those that we had collected it from, from those that had so willingly and genrously given what little they had. GOD BLESS ALL OF THEIR KINDLY SOULS. GOD BLESS THEM ALL.

Indeed the newspaper collection had turned out more then just recycleables. It had also helped me to find the faith in the human spirit and its generocity. For these people, living in their current conditons and states seemed to be more then enough. They felt that having a roof over their heads, running water and a bit of light in the nigh was sufficient for them. Thus they generously gave what they could. They cartered out loads of newspapers, obviously ment for the amount of money that the Rag and Bone man would pay them for. They rummaged and ransacked their house for unwanted clothing also ment for the same being.

From the look of their rather sparten living conditions, or rather crowded living enviroment, i can only say one thing, they truely know the meaning of giving without reserve.

Trintiy : Neo, I Love you.

The Matrix : REVOLUTION

In The Heat of Summer SUnhine...

2005-01-21T23:59:00.000-08:00

21st January 2005

Trinty : Neo, Its so beautiful!

The Matrix : REVOLUSION

Today was one of the best days of my life. Lol. DEFINITELY!

OG 36!! YOU GUYS AND GALS ALL ROCK!!!!!!! YEAH! ROCK ON ALL YOU DUDES AND DUDETS!!!

Waking up at about two hours before my usual waking time of 11am, I hurriedly changed, ate my breakfast and took a craper. Lol. I then hurried off to meet the others at Bishan MRT.

At this point I’d like to congratulate my very own Raymond for doing such a fantastic job, THANK YOU SO MUCH MY FELLOW MEOW MEOW HIGHLANDER!! You have done so much for so many, and judging by the way the day ended, I’d say that it was by far, a HUGE SUCCES! GREAT JOB!!!
ROCK ON DUDE! Lol.

The total number that could turn up was just 5 short of the entire group. Quite a feat indeed! We, Liping, Suk and myself have done quite a good job indeed. [ Thank you Raymond! ] Lol. Then again, we had done all of this not simply cause we had to or were forced to, but because we wanted and choose to. Why? Cause we just like to. Lol. A whole bunch of nice dudes and dudets, we were blessed to have this opportunity to meet. We are well met.

After the total number of people came, we boarded 13 and headed down to ECP. We had loads of fun on the bus itself. I was treated like a beast of burden, the scene would be repeated but a few hours later, but I can’t see the future…, and was thoroughly smacked. Lol. Sigh. Lol. Sometimes, being too nice a guy, you get … well… lol. Oh well… Lol. Mei Mei you arh… lol.
I was also some how romantically linked to one of the gals in the OG. Lol. Here we go again. Lol.
Again, I’d just like to say… MEI MEI ARH…. Lol. But oh well... Lol.

After the journey, in which we swapped all sorts of stories and me, all sorts of injuries…, we finally arrived at the ECP Mc Donalds. Lol. There we met up with Hens. The poor fellow had somehow lost his way in the park… poor fellow. Lol. Muns also came, dressed in the most peculiar fashion… Jeans?!?! On the beach!?!? Lol. Ok ok, so it has to be MY fault again that something goes wrong. Lol. Oh well… Lol. Thankfully Mei Mei brought an extra pair of hot shorts… Lol. Kel and Dan then arrived and we set off! Lol. A morning of cycling then commenced! Lol.

We had decided unanimously to cycle double bikes. It would be more fun. Lol. So after choosing our partners, we set off. I ended up with Dan. Lol. Fate? Lol. Just kidding. Lol. But the linking on the bus and this did seem rather… Lol. So I ended up doing most of the work. She ended up doing most of the scaring. Lol. The beginning section from the point where we started off from was rather crowded. Thankfully, due to my navigation skills, we managed to avoid any accidents. Of course, you would have to change a bit of your direction in order to avoid any accidents, and hence the bike might have to swerve a bit … Lol.

So… lol. I ended up as a rather horrid cyclist on most accounts, due to this… lol. But it was rather worth it to hear the screams and curses that did follow me where ever I went. Lol. It was great fun! Lol. Tiring as it was… lol. The back view was good though. Lol.
We cycled till the Bedok Jetty. There we initiated a stop. Lol. Our behinds being a bit on the sore side… lol. There we did another swapping of partners. Lol. This time I ended up with Mei Mei. Lol. She was faking a sense of doom and gloom, I could see that she was Ump-Chio-ing. Lol. She was supposedly an expert cyclist… lol. However… I ended up doing all the work… lol. Train for 2.4 indeed!!!

This stretch of the trail was less crowded, so we began to try and race to the be the first. Lol. The result was, as I later realized, that it was more of me trying to get to the front while carrying a 43 kilo free loader. Lol. NOW I understand why public goods are supplied by the government… lol. The entire time was more or less the leg power of myself… The peddles can tell you that. In fact, my babe also can tell you that! We compared stories later back at the shop. Lol.

However, it was NOT ENOUGHT!!! Lol. I was more of a mule! Using her palms as substitutes for whips, I was ASKED to go faster… lol. Actually Urged to go faster… lol. OUCH! Lol. But still was fun. Lol. We ended up stopping at the Singapore Sailing Center. There we took stock and realized that Elvin had disappeared! I then received an sms, telling us that he’d meet us back at the shop.

Thus the third and final swap commenced and I ended up with Kel. Lol. I believe that she had to be the best partner that I had for the entire of this cycling trip. DEFIANTELY. Lol. We ended up leading the pack as we sped back, time being always against us… , and also having a rather nice conversation. No screams or whipping, but just a nice chit chat session. DEFINITELY the most painless way to go. Lol.

She could coordinate the best with me, hence we managed to speed ahead and take the lead of the pack. Lol. I also learnt that she is highly like Ah Ma. Lol. Both have the same likes and dis-likes. Ok ok , more of like dis-likes. Lol. Her bf is surely one hell of a lucky guy! Nice gal, pretty, not very much to upkeep, highly sociable, nice… Did I mention nice? Lol.

Finally, when we reached the place, we dumped our bikes and blew ourselves crazy with the hurricane fans that were next to rental shop. When Elvin finally arrived, we then headed over to Macs where Nette was waiting. Lol. Buying our lunches, we then headed over to a shaded area and ate to our hearts content. Lol.

After the mean, we began to chit chat and that ended with us playing with the volley ball that now had arrived thanks to OG32. of course before that, I ended up writing a proposal for Muns, a nice guy’s work is never done… lol.

After trying to push me into the sea, we then headed up and played captain’s ball on the hot sand. It was rather hot… lol. Did I mention hot? Yep it was HOT! But we still had a lot of fun! We also had quite a good tan to go with it… lol. Yep.

After scorching off our soles, we headed back into the shade and Ray, Meng and myself then set off to buy water. On the way there, we spotted mei mei, Nette, Kel and Muns on baldes! Thus I joined them. Lol. I had always wanted to pick up this sport. Just never had the time to do so. Lol. Oh well. Lol. So I rushed off to get the blades and was helped by Kel. See! I TOLD you she was nice. Lol.

With her guidance, I was able to mount the curb and stuff. Lol. She taught me the basics and stuff, teaching me how to go forward and how to stand properly. I ended up going backwards… lol. Not her fault, just me was slow. Lol. Of course, I managed to do a 360 turn… lol. He he he .lol. However, it soon became apparent that I needed a lot of help. Lol. Thus Muns came over and the two of them took one hand each and we went off.

Actually, it was more of them dragging me around. Lol. However I was a bit slow in the uptake parts… and thus was unable to do anything till they left. Lol. Then I had an extra 20 mins. Lol. That was when I was finally managed to move on my own! Lol. Amazing! I managed to take on the humps and the slope! Lol. And do turning. Lol.

The total falls that I had was 10. For a first timer… well, I believe that that is rather acceptable? Lol. I think all I need is another one two times at this, in the next 2-3 months. Lol. Then!!! Lol.

Once again, THANK YA KEL AND MUNS! AND THE FELLOW FROM OG 32! THANK YA ALL BIG BIG!

After that, back in the shade, we played Dai Di, lol. Then Kel, Mei Mei and all the others from OG32 all went home. Dan too. They all couldn’t join us for the Steam Boat Dinner… lol.

Soon after, we stopped most of our games and then we hurried to change and wash up. Amazingly, Angie managed to take a bath!!! So Zhai! Lol. As they went about their business, those that were left, Mengs, Zi, Miang and Hens played Dai Di. Lol. It was rather refreshing watching them. Lol. Rather, more of like hearing them. Lol. I was helping to clear the area with Ray.

Shortly after, we rushed over to the waiting shuttle bus, Thank Ya BIG Ah Leong! Lol. He’s my classmate and also an OGL. He had managed to help us stall the bus uncle. However, the problem was seating. The uncle didn’t allow us to stand nor seat on anything except the seats ,that were by this time, rather fully taken.

Thanking him, my wonderful classmate and friend, we then made our way off to the bus stop. There we intended to take bus 36 to Dhouby Gauh station and then go down to Marina.
However, thanks to the keen eyes of my OG, we alighted at City Hall, and thus saved us a station. Lol. GREAT JOBS GUYS!

On the ride, I realize that Muns could speak Cantonese! The happiness was unfound! Lol. It had been so long since I had been able to find someone who could converse in this somewhat forgotten language, dialage. It was great fun! And the cute little gal just HAD to trick us into thinking that she could not make it for the dinner as well!!!! So Naughty! Lol. But I LIKE! Lol.

I had suspected it though as she did not really offer much resistance on the phone to her sis… lol. HA! Lol. But she still did get me well… lol. So clever! Lol.

So, we rushed down the station and squeezed onto the carriage. Lol. We made good time and were zipped by the shuttle bus waiting for us at the bus stop. The driver must have been preparing for the Formula One Graund Pre… We simply speed through the mostly deserted lanes in such a short time, that most of us could not believe that we were there already when we reached there! Lol.

Finally we reached the place. The last OG to reach. However, you know what they say! We save the BEST FOR LAST! Lol. The place that had been reserved for us however was to the dismay and dislike of everyone. The place was enclosed and the smoke from the entire eatery and the surrounding tables was sure to kill the appertites of many.

I was seated with Muns, LiPing, Mengs, Hens and Wei Loong. We had alot of bitter gourd in the soup. interestingly, Muns likes FRESHLY BOILED gourd. I suppose thats acceptable. lol.

After a rather satisfying meal, we had the usual swapping of ghost stories. It was really enjoyable. lol. The best part was about the hand thingy. lol. Really funny. Poor Zi Jia. lol.

I also understand this entry is rather late. But still, it is rather long... lol.
And life is as rapid as it usually is. Take care MIFUNIANS! seeya all!!!

LONG DAYS AND PLEASENT NIGHS my good reader.

Reloading

2005-01-19T16:30:00.000-08:00

Link: And then the code got all weird...
Link: Some kind of inscrpition that i have never seen before...

The Matrix : RELOADED

I'm entering this entry in the school lab 1. The kind of mind is more of like that of one who has just awoken. I just had GP. And no, i'm sorry, i did not sleep through the lesson. I'm just so dead tired.

It is not easy to be me.

Five For Fighting ; Superman,Its not easy.

The day has been rather tiring, well, two continuous lectures? Ok, Ok, so it isn't really that tiring and all... but STILL.. when one operates on less and less amount of time of sleep. The addtion of weird dreams do not really help to sooth the mind and ease the soul.

In the dream, i was some how in this weird and underground place, and for some reason or nother, i was busy clearing out a whole lot of old and dusty name thingys, those that are made of wood and have your name and some good stuff written about you... ya.. those kinda stuff... So i was clearing the pile of stuff, then were all kinds of weird and mutated bugs that kept crawling out of the indivitual old and crumbling wooden name thingys. they were totally weird, like imagine a bed bug, just about the size of a cockroach and that has a kinda thick white hairs all over the creature. The thing was not too hard. But for some odd reason, it just did not allow itself to get killed. I tried squashing it with the palm of my hand, and idid not succed. lol. Typical huh? so in the end, i opened this extremely dirty grate, that was somehow linked to a black yonding hole, and then just flushed it down. There were other creatures down there and they were not in the lest bit as welcoming in terms of visually as this particular one in my palm...

Following that, my surrondings were like a rather old and peeling wall , concrete, then behind me were these pannels of jailcell like bars. These were in panenels, and they extended like neverendingly. They formed almost a wall, and they were just like the first. there was another one of these exact same barriers parallel to this. They were then forming like a barrier. This first double jail-cell barrier was parallel to another likewise barrier. They flanked a long passageway of which there was a door on both ends.

After the bug flushing, the door on left, behind me, opened, and out rushed this old lady that used a detached finger with a rather long nail to attack me.

The details, i will spare ya, but in the end, i ended up being stabbed in many places, one in the left shoulder. When i awoke, there was a dull ache at that location.

A fast forward of the days events to the nigh-life.
Went back home and then went out again for the S6B class dinner. Marina Bay! Here i come. Rushed there wearing what i had said i would wear, a Aiddas Sleveless, broad shorts and sandels. When one eats an outdoor steamboat-bbq, the likely-hood of dressing so becomes more of a neccesity.

When i finally reached the place, i was relieved of my likelyhood of being late. lol.After waiting another 30mins, we set off to the buffet. Due to the extremely large number of people who had decided to take full advantage of a nigh such as this, we ended up having three groups to go there, two in taxi, one by bus. I had Streetwisely chosen the latter.The journey was rather sqeezy, with the bus seeming to have taken more then alot by a margine of 10-12... lol.

We finally reached the place, and were quickly ushered and seated. Mrs Ivay Lim, our GP teacher, surprised most of us by her sudden appearance at the place. She had apparently arrived at the same time as the first two groups. She even turned out a cake!

We sang a song,cut the cake and the buffet feast, commenced! We attacked the seafood, and meats with no quater, all of us, filling our plates with mounts of raw, red meat and succulent sea food.

Soon after, about an hour after we had started the marathon, Tom came, together with Mrs Celine Lim, Our CT.She had given him a lift. She too shook hands and wished her well and was soon off.

We continued through the night, from 7.45pm till 11pm. The entire time was simply eating, eating, replenish the empty plates, change the black Al foil and then continue...Injesting and masticating. lol. Ben and Panda and Veera came as we were rushing through the marathon. they had their fill too.

After the mad race, we went to play at the arcade, GENTLEMEN START YOUR ENGINES! lol. We played many games and Kel showed his prowness. Definately the champ!

Afterward, we went over to find NOOB and his OG. There i again met the gal who finds cows sexy and her good friend again. lol. At least this time i got to know her name. lol. Yee Ling and Jasmine. You go figure which one like cows. lol. THey were playing bowling and were cheering on those that could make the most number of gutter balls.
They cheered alot... lol. But they were having fun and that was all that mattered.

We soon left the happy group and then went off to catch the last train home.
I finally got to hit the sack at 12.30-1 am. The next day was MI OG outing! and i won't miss it for the world!

Charging

2005-01-17T10:50:00.000-08:00

17th January 2005

Link : Shit, I’ve lost him again.

The Matrix : RELOADED

Lol. The search for the all-welcomed class jersey continues. Yesterday’s journey to Queenstown was an informative one… the main focus of it was to simply gather information. Now armed with that information and a bit of a rough idea, we made our way down to Peninsular Plaza for another try at finding that ultimate jersey…

After eating a lunch, we trooped down, Tom, Vege Man from VEGELAND!, M@dcatz and wor Ren and myself went down to Peninsular Plaza. It was a quite long journey down and also was quite a lot of walking.

On finally reaching City Hall, we entered the wrong plaza at first. Descending to the basement, we found ourselves facing a Thai Restaunt, A Burger King joint, in front of an arcade center and facing an Indian fast food Restaunt. Lol. There was an underpass that I later spotted, but as I said, later… lol. So what happened was that due to someone’s incredible idea, we ended up rushing into the Indian Fast Food Restaunt. The smells there were quite strong, to say the least…, and the best part was that there was NO through road. Lol. Laughing ,and some of us gasping, we staggered out of the deli. Lol.

It really was very funny, but for the sake of being politically correct, I shall adhere to some of my own rules. Lol. Self-censorship? Nope. More of like what is called diplomacy. Lol.

The only thing that was comforting there was that there were NIKE jerseys there. There were however about only two that would fit the bill… One was a Nike: Total 90 and the other was another Nike Jersey…Dry fit of course. In the end, majority there, voted for the Total 90… It is lack and has this neon green 90 on the left breast.

The other shop that sold the other jersey priced their ware at 36… however, they would charge a $1 a letter, numbers being free… The one which sold the Total 90 priced it roughly at 39 total. With printing and all…

The ones that we had seen in Queenstown were quite saddening, all of them DEFINITELY NOT making the cut… however, there was a shop in Queensway that definitely sold rather nice NIKE jerseys… The price though left much to be desired in many a sense… Lol. The designs though…. Really really nice. REALLY!!!!!!! You can ask POI KOI if it do ya good!

The jersey that we had chosen in Queensway was the exact twin of that of S6A’s… The only difference is that it was a different colour… The few that have come to realize and I believe have awoken from the bedlam, have agreed and supported my clearheaded and tasteful views.

We should not get that jersey… the similarity is too great and thus it feels rather boring in the least, silly in the other extreme to get the exact same model as their class…The only plus that it has to offer is that it will be cheap… the cheapest so far… 33 in total. But still, if you buy something that is cheap, but that looks like a copy of others… what is the point? Will you wear it that often then if you bough one that is totally different but a bit more expensive?

The answer to that question is unavoidable and should be presented as a long term question. Lol. However only I have though of that point… Sigh, oh what a task at hand. Lol.

Morpheus : when I see three ships, with three captains with three objectives.
Morpheus : I do not see chance.
Morpheus : I see providence.

The Matrix : RELOADED

OVERJOYED!

2005-01-15T06:24:00.000-08:00

Ok, i think i shall give the quote a break. lol. i am a bit shor of time in this etry and it is also rather a bit late... lol.

Now that the harsh realities of school life have settle back into my life, i have been piled on with like an unending mountain of HOMEWORK. of course, haveing so much that i cannot clear doesn't seem enough. lol. so some how my body gave me another challenge. lol.

try and compelet it all when u feel like u are just going to collapse from exhaustion combined with the fact that you hurt everytime you talk, oh and no one understands what you have said due to the quality of your voice, and that you cough till you just wanna do ya lungs a favour and just rip the pair out. lol.

However, there are still a lot of saving graces! My OG , YOU GUYS ROCK SIA!!!!!, delighted me to no end, so many cards! [ 23 - one from everyone! ] a very cute FOREVER FRIENDS bear, a HPchain with the intials GENE and two bars of chocs. lol.
i have known many other OGLs who did not get even a card from their OG...

personally, i would have been very happy with just a card from the entire OG, thats just me, i don't expect much, but this was like CHRISTMAS! lol. really!!!!! i was OVERWHELMED!!!!! OVERJOYED!!!!!! and well.. OVERFLOWING WITH HAPPINESS AND PRIDE!!!!
i'm still amazed that i didn't explode from happiness. lol.
once again, i shall profess :

OG36, MIFUNE!!! YOU GUYS AND GALS! ALL ROCK MI WORLD! LOL. U ALL ARE THE BEST!!! I LOVE YA ALL! LOL.

i still am touched deeply.

ok, i shall stop here, and continue cimbing mount everlasting. lol.

ZION! 2005 01 DAY 5

2005-01-07T23:59:00.000-08:00

7th January 2005

Oracle : Everything that has a beginning, has an end.

The Matrix : Revolutions

Today had to be the BEST DAY of the Orientation for me and the other two OGLs. Li Ping and Suk.
The reason? Not because we would be paid a million dollars nor a room filled with millions of diamonds, rubies, sapphires nor any other precious gems. All these rewards mean little to us, in fact, it might even lead to our downfall as a result. Instead we received something that no amount of money could buy.

Our OG’s bonding being as completed as it could possibly be.

The fruits of our labour.

A truly rewarding experience.

As usual, the day started with the early reporting time of 6.45 AM. Lol. If you though that doing that for the past few days might have helped to condition my body to do that, well, you might be right! However, performing the same task again when one has slept at 12AM the same night, it was amazingly refreshing! Lol. For once I felt truly refreshed, all ready!

Rushing through the egg sandwiches, I hurriedly rushed off into the early light of dawn. Again, I met Chris and Jas, I think [I’m doing this entry on a sat, so its all memory…], at the bus stop and HALLEJUAH! The bus driver was definitely Heaven-Sent! The fellow would speed up when he saw the yellow light! Lol. YEAH! Hence, I managed to reach school on time. PHEW! Lol.

During the briefing, we were given a new and final instruction, today, the objective would be UNITY! The number of incidents that had been happening as a result of the following days activities, we had now a very high level of competition among our charges. Many being unhappy with the results of the NY hunk and babe. It would be our responsibility to bond them together today. We would enforce NANYANG! Instead of any of the factions.

After the Skit, we OGLs then went up onto stage and in a sign of unity we did a couple of cheers together. Then, OG 44 began to do the axe dance. As we did the AXE DANCE on stage in front of the entire school, we received again many a look of incredibility and stares and many a laugh. Lol. It was for the last that we were doing this! Lol. Subsequently, we asked all the other OGLs to go down and start teaching the J1s the AXE DANCE! Lol. I stayed on stage with Boon, Fawaz, Benjamin, Rui Jie and Zheng Xing. We lead and they followed! Lol! Amazing! Lol.

After the AXE dance, we of NAZGUL started to do the dance! Lol. YEAH! FINALLY! We did both the twenty seven and the traditional dances. IT was great dancing with Li Ping. Lol. Subsequently I got the chance to strut my stuff with Wai Kit and and loads of fun with the other OGLs. I also helped to correct certain mistakes among my OG, and helped them along with the occasional shouts of SPECIAL CHORUS! Lol. It was really good fun! Not being able to do this the past few days I finally had the chance to show it! YEAH!

We also had chosen a guy and a gal to represent us to go up stage to just do their stuff and show us what they got in order to get the greatest number of laughs. They were willing enough and they did us well, lol.

After that, we went down for lunch. It was through this that I had the first hints of just how well they, MIFUNE, had bonded together. Having had them write their names down onto a name list, I had also gotten them to get their HP nos , email addresses and also their D.O.Bs onto the same sheet. Lol. The addresses would come later. It turned out that today was one of the Guy’s Birthday! Lol.

The guys had been busy discussing how they would deal with this, and they did well! They had bought a birthday card and a key chain for our charming dude. They also made all of us to sign the card! Lol. All this was done in secrecy and much clandestine. We were also offered drinks by one of our very own! Chocolates, Heresy’s Milk and Chocolates were also given to each of us by Good old Mr H! lol. THANK YA BIG BIG!

We were all touched! Lol. After lunch, where by the gals did talk much, much more compared to the past few days, the guys too, we headed down to the grandstand for our mass games! Lol.
After crazy soccer, we headed off to another game, Tail snatching! Lol. This I gathered was received with much more enthusiasm and glee from my charges. Lol. As they had their fun, I compared notes with my fellow OGL, Li Ping. We agreed without any doubt that today, had to be the best day! EVER!

Subsequently, I led them to the MPR, Multi Purpose Room, and there we had Get Ya Own! Lol. On the way there, I was quizzing them on how they had found the earlier two games. They all agreed that it was great fun the Tails, but soccer was rather dead… Lol. I agreed. There in the MPR, we met our match. Lol.

Being our numbered by roughly about 3 is to 1 by the opposing faction, we were slaughtered with out a doubt. The method that they had employed were also rather questionable, gals throwing the balls over to the guys and then the guys taking the ball all the way was rather worrying. Lol. Thankfully there were no causalities. Although we had lost, there was yet another unquestionable thing, the entire group, OG 36 and the other OGs had definitely bonded together much more then any thing else that could have done it. Lol. Of cause winning might have been the icing on the cake, but the odds being so badly against us, we were just happy to have lasted so long as we had. Lol. Both teams displayed so much sportsmanship that EVERYONE was simply overjoyed! The feeling of euphoria was simply justified! Lol.

After that, we hurried out and we hurried back to the grandstand. After a 3 minute water break, we hurried over to the wrong station, not my fault! I was not told which was which! Then we played the last game, Qudditch, Singaporean Style! Although we were beaten too, but we had loads of fun! The guys and gals from both factions were now rater gelled together, and they now discussed rather freely among one another, with no need of us OGLs to help out in giving instructions.

The amount of team work shown was simply outstanding! The guys in my OG were great! We blazed down the field one solid line! Weaving through their defense like any other great soccer team, or like Arsenal’s Theiry Henry, we managed some fantastic goals and tries! Majority of it going to my BABE! He’s the BEST! Lol. The other guys did their stuff too! All of them doing their best! That was all that I wanted! They were the best!
After that, we chilled out at the grandstand and we started to play all the interesting games! Lol. We had already played a few before we had begun the games, after lunch, and so now we continued. We also gave out sweets, White Rabbits and Peppermints! Both were greeted with much enthusiasm. Lol. As the other Ogs gave their OGLs presents and much snow, we watched on with much glee! Lol. After that, we went up to the air-conditioned Hall. Then, we started to play the FACTION GAMES! Lol. It was called DESTROY! Lol.

Interestingly enough, NAZGUL was wise enough to formula several strategies! Misdirection and misery. Lol. One of which was for us to take off our wrist bands and thus claim that we were from another faction! Lol. Misdirection! Lol. Misery was a very ingenious idea! Lol. Forming a circle with the forces that we had available to us, they had decided that the gals would form the outer ring and the guys the inner. When attackers tried to take pot shots at our structure, the gals would unleash their ultimate weapon! SCREAMS! Lol. This was done not only one at a time, but at least three at a time at the poor attacker. Lol. That was hilarious! Our poor foes were totally shocked and stunned by this tactic! Lol.

In the end, when the scores for that game came out, it was a draw between all factions. No much of a surprise there. Lol. However everyone was still rather happy due to the level of sportsmanship that everyone displayed for this game. Lol.

Still seated in the hall after the announcement, the final skit was acted out. There, Smith, was defeated by the united forces of ZION! Lol. He was not destroyed though due to Mo Mo saving his sorry arse from the Norton Anti Virus. Shortly after, we headed down to the grandstand for our dinner.

Dinner, being the buffet that it was, turned out into a rather mind boggling time. Lol. For some reason, there was not enough food to go around. According to some reports, for some factions, there was not enough for entire Ogs! Scary but true. In NAZGUL, we as OGLs decided that we would let the J1s go first. Lol. [ I know this sounds rather heroic and big headed at the same time, but, it was true! And it was cause we had decided to put their welfare in front of ours. ]

In the end, we, Li Ping, Suk and myself went empty stomached up for disco nigh. However! Our OG managed to eat their fill and with as much speed as they could. Lol. The guys were particularly vocal about our lack of nutrient and substance and the gals as well judging form their looks. This show of concern was more then enough for the three of us and we felt that if forgoing one meal for such moment was the price, we would gladly forgo many a meal for it did fill us up more then most meals could have. The show of comradeship among all our OG members was indeed priceless.

We were of course still provided enough to eat by the SC for it was sort of their fault and they had gladly decided that they would fix it. We had after all paid $6 for the meal…

It was then after a final debrief, that DISCO NIGH started! Lol. Once the party began, the guys simply asked me to follow them. Unthinkingly I did so. It was then that they grabbed me and started to throw me up! Lol. They did this three times and at the end of it, I was simply overjoyed! Lol. How many people got that during the rest of the nigh I am really not sure, at last count, I believed that I was the only one. However, regardless, I am still overwhelmed and full of pride as they felt that I was worthy enough to receive such an honor. Lol. Later, I was told by one of them, I know ya name! I just won’t say it here, that I was supposed to be flipped, but never mind. LOL.

THANK YA GUYS! THANK YA ALL BIG BIG! YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST! LOL.

MIFUNE then started to form their circle like everyone else was doing and we started to simply just jump up and down. Lol. It was partially due to the tracks and the atmosphere not being dark enough, hence the mood was still a little reserved. Then the track, Shut Up by the Black Eyed Peas began. Feeling that the mood had at least hyped up a little, I took the plunge and simply went into the center of the circle and then did my thing! LOL.

The place that MIFUNE had picked was exactly at the spot where the disco lights had chosen to shine. In the center, I was in a way, the star! Lol. At this point, I would like to inform you, kindly reader who has followed this entry thus far, that I have never taken dancing lessons before, nor have I ever been to an actual nigh club, bar nor any rave party nor count downs. Lol. In my place, I started to dance as my body told me to and in the way that my heart demanded and yet pleaded me to.

As I danced to the groove of the song, some how, the guys started to go wild! LOL! YEAH! Clapping and jumping faster and higher as I did my thing in the center, I could feel the level of the party, at least among my own OG, go a notch higher! Lol. Turning, I faced the gals and did roughly the same thing. Lol. They too began to relax a bit more and started to get the groove! Lol. The life of the party had just managed to produce a few sparks! Lol. YEAH! Lol.

I danced about 4 more tracks before I was informed that dinner was here. Following the others who hadn’t had time to eat as well, we sprinted in leaps and bounds to the awaiting packets of chicken rice. If it was one thing that I learnt from the half hour that had passed, it was that jumping up and down on an empty stomach and at an extremely fast pace and at extremely high bounds is very not very good. Not very good at all.

After downing the pack, we separated and I ended up alone. Lol. We had agreed to meet up at the grandstand, but… lol. Oh well… Giving myself a grace period of half an hour, cause I do not want to end up doing the Merlion, I ended up talking to this Catholic High fellow that had had enough. We had a good chat and at the end, I hoped that I had managed to solve his many quires. Lol.

After that, I went back up again and then the party continued! Lol. Finding my OG again, this time I did 7 tracks nonstop. About 3 of them with a gal and 1 with another guy from the OG! Lol. It was great fun! The whole time, it was simply song after song after song! YEAH! Lol. Fantastic! Lol. Jiving to the beat, which was in a way a bit old to say the least, I enjoyed myself tremendously. Lol. I hope that the rest of my OG had had their fun! Lol. Suk was really quite on! So was another Gal from the OG! Lol. You know who you are! Lol. That was a great dance! Lol. Thank ya! Lol.

Soon, the nigh drew to a close, and I had jived to more then 20 tracks. I had lost count after the 20. Lol. Soon after that, I wished my OG a good nigh, and to rest well. Then summer sunshine played and the gals ran back in and did the 27th dance again. Lol. It was great fun. Lol. After that, they were sent off on their way. Lol.

Helping the council to clean up the place, OG 44 then went out. Lol. We went straight to J8, 77th Street. Lol. We then found Han and we did the dance! Lol. The AXE DANCE! Lol. Then we headed down to KFC and ate to our hearts content, most of us also not having had enough of the chicken rice. Lol.

By the time I reached back home, it was already 11 PM. Tired but happy. Happy indeed.

Morpheus : Tonight, let us send us a message from Red Clay to Black Sky!
Morpheus : Tonight!
Morpheus : Let us shake these walls of earth, steel and stone!
Morpheus : Tonight!
Morpheus : Let us remember, we are ZION!
Morpheus : And WE SHALL NOT BE DEFEATED!

The Matrix : REVOLUSION

ZION! 2005 01 DAY 4

2005-01-06T23:38:00.000-08:00

6th January 2005

Morpheus : But we all know why we are here.
Morpheus : It is because of our affinity for disobedience.

The Matrix : RELAODED.

Lol. Another 6.45AM day! Lol. Things usually don’t get any earlier then this… I’ll spare ya all the details, cause it is the same old, same old. The only difference is that I met Chris and Jas at the bus stop before boarding the bus. Lol.

We made it on time, and FINALLY!!! I AM A GAMES CONDUCTOR NO LONGER! LOL! I could finally spend a whole day with my OG! Lol. What a fantastic day! Lol. What’s more we would be doing THE QUEST! Lol.

The day rolled out fast! Within an hour of assembly, we were already heading out of the campus. Lol. Thankfully, due to my fore sight, we divided ourselves into three groups of eight, eight and seven. In my group, we had an equal number of guys and gals after my fantastic J1, it’s a she, but I don’t wanna say her name; don’t want all the guys to start chasing ya.. , swapped with one of the guys. And so, we left NYJC, a one liter bottle of water being carried in my left hand, and our hopes held as high as the group’s flag on my right.

Our first stop was The Supreme Court. We managed that station without much difficulty. En route, I managed to know all the names in my group! YEAH! Ok, so maybe more of the gals names first then the guys, but hey! I still managed to get all their names! Lol. I also threw a challenge! Lol. They hopefully have remembered all the other’s names and also their birthday and their favorite colour. HE HE HE.

Completing the Court, we headed to the next nearest station and then the station next to that. One being the Old Parliament House and Parliament House. Parliament house being handled especially by my two OG gals. I would like to thank you two as well, but as I mentioned above, no names. Lol. One of these days I’ll say Ok! Lol.

After taking a photo of raffles and the passing Sumitro’s station, we ended up at Lynette’s. lol. Having spent quite sometime there trying to guess why the station[ bonus] was called station 27, this all due to her impartiality, we passed the station with much help and many thanks from a Guy in our OG.

Making our way to The Esplanade, a few of us were stopped by an elderly old man. The fellow was wearing a Tee-shirt that had the words : AUSTRAILIA , SURFER PARADISE Gold coast On it. The poor old fellow stopped a few of the guys as we passed the bus stop. Being the kind hearted fellows that I had always suspected, they gladly tried their best to help him. The problem was that after trying many a time, we failed to convey the simple meaning of these letters to the elderly gent. In retrospect, I believe that he was a bit off his rocket. A screw loose up there.

Thankfully, I had the quick think to pulled them off him as soon as it was possible and thus save us from any further nonsense.

It was then at the Fullerton One/ Merlion station, that the group was again greeted with another interesting fellow. This time, the interloper had decided that he’d simply just act cool. Lol. Putting on sun visors, he began to sing Jay Chou’s An Jing. At a rather audible pitch. His intonation was there, and all. There was also a Media Corp Van parked nearby. Lol. Wonder if were the target of a GOTCHA gag, but if so, they failed to get any reaction from the impeccable OG! It was at this station that I had the chance to empty the One Litre bottle into the now empty bottles of my thirsty OG members.

After that, we headed down to the Esplanade itself! There after completing the station, we cheered with another NAZUGL OG! Sadly we were out-matched by our own and had to do another one as a faction. This was to Alyssa’s satisfaction and thus we then released. Thus far, we had completed our stations with relative speed, but time being ever against us, we had only enough for a final one. This we decide, would be Fort Canning Park. Hurriedly we rushed there.

At this point, I believed everyone had the greatest amount of fun yet! Lol. We ran as an OG through City Link! Lol. Hurriedly we bought our tickets and all at City Hall station and double timed it to Douby Ghaut station. There, we sped up a total of 8 flights of stairs and one more leading down. In the end, we could not find the station in question. Heeding the instructions, I believed that everyone also assumed that it was the top of the hill. Thus we all charged blindly up and ended up finding no one there.

However, all was not lost and in the end we were still consoled by the Yong Cheng. As we headed back towards the NEL Line, I held a group discussion among the entire OG at one of the Douby Ghaut station entrances. There were a group of promoters there and as I held the meeting one of them, a rather nice looking Indian fellow began to make funny faces at my OG. It was ok, he seemed friendly and all. No big deal. After I was done, he began to start chanting JUCIE! JUICE! At my OG. Their reaction was one of shock and fear, drawing ever further away from the fellow who was trying to be friendly. One of the males then shouted back COFFEE! COFFEE! This drew a look of confusion and Anger from our interloper and he shouted back WHAT? FUCK YOU! ? ? Hurriedly I hurried my OG and especially the fellow down to the station itself and explained to our interloper that he had just said COFFEE! And nothing more. The dude immediately relaxed and chilled out. THANKFULLY! THE BIG GUY UP THERE REALLY LIKES ME! YEAH!

After that, we headed back to school, stopping only to fill our now growling pits with some of the produce from the Golden Arcs. Lol. Thankfully, I received Iszam’s number from another OG that had also stopped at the Serangoon Eatery. Hence we were thus allowed to report back at 1.45 PM without the council worrying too much.

Then it was time for NY HUNK AND BABE contest! Lol. We had already selected the guy that would be representing us as THE BABE! The hunk, we had also rather strongly suggested to be another gal. However, in the end after a bit of persuasion from my partner OGL Li Ping, She joined the cause. At this point I’d like to also mention that she is also the same gal that volunteered to change over to my group earlier in the morning.

THANK YOU GAL! [ I still know and rem ya name k! just don’t wanna say!] YOU REALLY ARE A SPORT! I REALLY AM PROUD OF YOU BEING SO EASY-GOING AND AN ENTHUSIASTIC VOLUNTEER! YOU ARE THE BEST! Thank ya BIG BIG! You ROCK GAL!

Shortly after we had had the pagan, we then dismissed our J1s. Sadly, our babe could not win. This was really saddening! He had really sacrificed a lot for the faction! Shaving his Arm pits, wearing fake boobs and even downing a tube top and black stockings! We had ALL believed that he would win! It seemed unavoidable! Inevitable! And yet…

However, we were still consoled with our Hunk Winning NY HUNK! Oh well, they would never allow both HUNK and BABE from the same faction. So, we had already tried our best and won our maximum!

After the debrief, we learnt the dance from Boon, Fawaz and Benjamin. This was followed with the whole lot of us going our separate ways. In the end, we some how met up again at J8 and had at least half of OG44! Outing! Lol. We also met many other OGLs as were did out thing on the fourth level! Lol. Receiving many a stare from all quarters but not caring at all.

We did the dance anywhere and everywhere! In the corridors, in the walkways even as we headed towards Long John Silvers for our much needed dinner. We were also treated to two free Combo Ones from the outlet! Curiously, they had delivered two extras. Looking around, we found that all other tables had already their platters. In other words, these were ours! Lol.

After dinner, we got red hair spray from the 77th street outlet, playing the HE LIKE’S game! Thankfully, my memory has not failed me! There, we again did the AXE DANCE in front of the shop-keeper in a bid to get the price lowered for the spray. We had loads of laughs and many funny moments, but no reduction in the end.

Trooping down to Fair Price, we again got a lot more food for our OG s. I also chanced upon my classmate from my old first three months from CJ, Clara. She was shopping with her ma? Sorry if I got it wrong! Lol. Really Sorry!

After getting 2 packs of sweets, we hurriedly dispersed, the time then was already 9.45 PM.

Captain Malfony : FOR ZION!

The Matrix : REVOLUTION

ZION! 2005 01 DAY 3

2005-01-05T21:45:00.000-08:00

5th January 2005

Cipher : You want a drink?
Neo : Sure.
*Cipher pours, Neo takes a swing.
*Neo tears and gasps.
Cipher : Good shit huh?
*Neo nods, breathless.
Cipher : Dosher makes it.
Cipher : Good for only two things.
Cipher : Ungreasing engines
Cipher : And killing brain cells.

The Matrix.

As I sat at my dining table, time check: 6.25 AM, I munched on the tuna fish sandwiches. Normally I would enjoy then meal, but the taste of mayo and sweet corn tasting tuna isn’t exactly the kind of stuff you would digest nor masticate at such an hour. Which I hence had a difficult time pushing down my gullet, the shot of hot coffee chasing it down; simply divine.

As result, I could only watch helplessly as I watched two 53s go buzzing past the street in the distance. Lol. One can only imagine the kind of anxiety that one should be feeling when you head off to school at such a time, when one’s reporting time is 6.45 AM.

Feeling a sense of impending doom, I rushed down the four flights of stairs that followed their never-ending command; obstruction. It began to pour as well after I passed the third floor. Lol. HURA! Lol. It just gets better and better! Lol. Finally, reaching ground level, I hurried to the bus stop. Lol. That was when I had a sneezing fit! Lol. Blew like a couple of fire works like on the 9th of August! Lol.

Thankfully, the silly episode ended by the time I had reached the bus stop! Lol. Some one up there REALLY likes me! Lol. Then, following the movie, Meet the Fockers, the bus came! HALLELIJEAH! Also in conjunction with the movie, the bus made it unheeded through the four traffic junctions!

In the end, I made it on time. Lol. Sprinting all the way so as to make it. Lol. Arriving at the hall, I entered the wooden concave a little over three minutes before the briefing began. Lol. The same old same old was again dished out. Lol. The wooden doors then opened to the J1s. Lol.

If we were expecting the same old from them too, lol, the rushing in immediately and in droves, the result was quite the opposite. Lol. A trickle was all that greeted us. Lol. It was not their fault in the least. Lol. Truly. Lol. The weather was still dishing out its torrents of raindrops with a vengeance. Lol. As the life giving substance pelted down, we waited and assembly started on time. Lol.

Soon after, I was again torn away from my OG! It is simply not fair that this should be happening to me time after time, day after day! I already missed out in teaching the dance, traditional, now I had to miss the teaching of Summer Sunshine! Sigh… Oh well…

The only consolation was that the company was good. Lol. Zhen Hui Xing Xiang were quite nice fellows and together our trio performed our task. The games were thus conducted with precision, fun and a ruthless heeding of every second. Lol. Being professional, we conducted all games without biasness towards any faction, even our own.

After five OG, it was only the timely addition of a Strapsile that managed to see me truth the rest of the next half hour. Lol. After packing up the station, I trooped over to my own OG, who were busy cheering against Osiris.

I was deeply gladden when I arrived. We were giving them, Osiris, a good run for their point! Lol. The guys had managed to rally together. Five of them were thus standing in front of the group, with the gals also being rather sporting and cheering rather enthusiastically behind them! This sight made me swell with pride! TRULY!

Guys! If you are reading this, I do want to thank ya for being such good sports! Lol. This orientation was designed for you guys to have FUN, make noise and simple know and make more friends! How much fun you guys want, how much noise and how many friends do you want to have at the end of this? I leave it to you all. But from today’s short time that I had managed to have with you all? I think that you all have decided that you guys want to max all that out! Lol. GOOD FOR YA ALL!!! CAUSE I WANT THAT TO HAPPEN TOO! So dudes and dudets in MIFUNE! IT IS TIME TO CHEER YA LUNGS OUT AND TILL YA THROATS GET SORE! Lol.

SO CAN I GET AN ENCHORE TOMORROW? Lol. Cause today’s performance was FANTASTIC!

After that, I had lunch with the guys! Lol. We learnt the clap, fist and elbow! Lol. Then it was time for them to do their thing and me to be again cast to my station. The action was just as fun with the other two factions, but my voice was now beginning to feel the stain. Thank GOD! For Strapsiles!

Soon after, it was time for the CCA bazaar! After leading my OG out of the hall and debriefing, I dismissed them and I hurried down to the BOWLING booth! Lol. Grabbing a handful of flyers, I set out to start the recruitment drive. Lol. As I weaved between the jostling masses of J1s, I scanned for my OG. Lol. Those that I managed to locate, thus managed to sample the simple delights of the NYJC Bowling team. LOL.

The time spent during the entire CCA bazaar was a whirl, but a very fantastic one. Lol. I end up in the hall and thus began to have a debate with my friend from judo. Lol. You see, we were jostling for the signatures of four J1s. Undoubtedly ,we had our differences and thus we began to have a rather interesting time comparing the facts in front of them. Lol. However in the end, we both agreed that since it was the first three months, we felt that they should take the opportunity to try out as many CCAs as humanly possible and then select their favorite! Lol. Outrageous, but true. Lol.

The total count for the day totaled up to 72 names. Lol. This was definitely better then that of our seniors ! lol. Definitely! Lol. I remembered when I joined during the second orientation, the total for the first intake, was but a mere 30 initially. Then the final count was 14.

MAN WE ARE GOOD! Lol.

The day ended off with a debriefing form our SC, and we were sent off on our way with a cheer! Lol. Collapsing onto my bed tonight will be a heaven sent. Hope that the BIG GUY up there will give me a totally good rest! Lol. GOD! THANK YA BIG BIG!

Councillor : I figured that i had been sleeping for the past 11 years of my life.
Councillor : I'm trying to make up for it.

The Matrix : REVOLUSION

ZION! 2005 O1 DAY 2

2005-01-04T23:22:00.000-08:00

4th January 2005

Trinity : Hold still, we think that they may have put a bug in you.
*The Bug is removed
Neo : Jesus!
Neo : That thing is REAL ?!

The Matrix

Lol. Ok, lol. Today was another day! Lol. Tiring, but was quite worth it. This time ! HA ! I’ve managed to beat the schedule! Lol. I’ve managed to beat the system! Lol. Ok, maybe not the latter… But! I’ve still managed to catch the Bus! Lol.

As the gray heavens finally began to release its much horded photons and rays, I was safely seated within the confines of the hall. Still half awake, but it beats feeling the same on the bus at the same time yesterday. Lol. As I entered the concave, I found my fellow OGL classmates, a total of 14 out of my 24 strong class had chosen this arduous and self-sacrificing task, at their usual haunt. All sitting next to each other, leaning against the hall’s wall, and simply chilling out. Or in a simpler phrase? Stoning. Lol. At such an hour, who wouldn’t? lol.

After the briefings, we again welcomed our OG! Lol. As our charges came in, the three of us wondered, how this day would be. The answer now is obvious. It would be as fun as we decided it would be. Correction! Lol. As MIFUNE decided it would be! Lol. After the skits, I went down to start preparations for the games…

Being in charged of the game: memory log, it was a simple task to arranging and unfolding my tools. Naturally, when my fellow OGL, Games conductor, approached me for help to help move a few benches here and there? I gladly obliged. I wanted to see how my stubborn muscles in my arms, and shoulder blades would rebel against their master. Lol. Pain in the morning! Lol. Never leave home without it! Lol. Apparently, today, I was going to receive a larger serving.

While lifting the bench, I taking one and her the other, I had chosen to carry mine, she to drag hers. What happened was a classic example of how a combination of stupidity and lack of sleep, can transform the simplest of tasks into an accident. While reaching under with my right arm, I had the stupidity to start to lift the bench. As a result, I ended up receiving a rather nice slash from the bench’s underbelly. A FINE present so early in the morning. Lol.

Hurriedly, I went over to the Gents and let the running water flow! Lol. Ah…. How… Invigorating. Lol. Next I had to get some antiseptic, TCP if possible. I ended up being herded to the First Aider’s room. There besides the antiseptic swab, I also was forced to put on a bandage. Nurse’s know best I suppose? Lol. In the end, I headed back to my station and continued conducting the game.

Imran [ I hope I got it right pal! ], the Kind Soul! , had taken the gracious liberty of helping me to setup my station. THANK YA BIG BIG ! The games started. Lol. Ending early after the second game, I spied out my OG using my perpetual vision and gave them a few tips on how to play another game. Lol. I hope that it was of use guys! Lol.

After they had done, and I had some extra time, I managed to teach them the marching cheer! Lol. This cheer is so successful that it has been used through out the entire OGL workshop guys! And trust me! It is the best! Why else would anyone from the other factions want to copy it? And to hell with the J2s having lessons, its only tutorials. And trust me, most would welcome the distraction. You’ll get what I mean when your timetable starts. Lol.

Lunch soon followed, but this was not before I heard this very loud group cheer arising from the grandstands! For a moment, I had the impression that Ithor had come back early for the day. Curious, I turned down to get a better look of the impressive dudes and dudets that this OG consisted of. Imagine the JOY! The PRIDE! The HOPE! That all arose when I recognized it as my own! MY VERY OWN OG! I had been smiling before I turned down due to a joke that I had heard. But when I turned and recognized them, my smile just widen. It must have touched both my ears and then maybe split my head into two but I had to congratulate them! I just had to! That must have saved me. Lol.

After lunch, the routine continued as my group started their dance lessons in the hall. Imran again was a Heaven-sent angel! The great dude helped me in manning my station as I sprinted up and down the two stories to be with my OG when ever possible. Which is only about 5-10 minutes at any given stretch. It was fun, if but a little breathless. Lol. I helped Dan Ni with her twirls. She is rather good at it. I must say! A bit more practice and hey! I think she’ll be able to rival many a female OGL! [ I don’t know so much about the rest of ya guys. So no comments…]

At this point in time I would like to deeply apologize! The SC overworked us silly enough to be Games Ics. I truly wanted to be with ya all! I truly did! I really love the dances! Sadly, I will only be able be with ya all only on Thursday… I’m sorry.

The day then ended off with us cheering our lungs out against the other Factions! Lol. Subsequently, me, Liping and Suk went down to J8. after a rather late lunch, we then headed to Mini Toons… Poor old me. Lol. In the end we went home only after raiding the comics connection and NTUC FairPrice.

Reaching home, I typed out the entire list. Lol. Every single contact of all those who wrote their names down. Lol. Fun indeed.

Link : Holy Shit!
Link : You are in the mountains!
*Neo looks around at the snowcapped mountains
Neo : Oh!
Neo : Really?

The Matrix : RELOADED

ZION! 2005 O1 DAY I

2005-01-03T22:35:00.000-08:00

Morpheus : Take the Blue Pill, and i'll show you just
Morpheus : How deep the rabbit hole goes.

The Matrix

Waking up at the unearthly hour of 6.15AM i was stunned to realise that my mother had overslept too. That might be a bit of a problem...

Downing a cup of Joe, two hastily prepared sandwhitches, slapping my HIP WING 300 on, i dashed out into the dying rain. The unforgiving sky still a dark shade of black. Apparently the DBS advertisement about the colour having 7 shades should have some truth aout it.

The most welcomed headlights of the turning 53 greeted me not too long after reaching the bus stop, boarding, i hurriedly took a seat, hooked up myself to the p10 and then just let the station help boost my IPS level to the appropreiate one;
AWAKE. lol.

Still, i arrived late with Angela and Sophia. hurrying into the hall, thankfully, we weren't the last to arrive! lol. Ah Long was ! lol. After the briefing! lol. ZHAI! lol. Subsequently, the doors were thrown opened, and we ushered in the J1s of the year 2005! lol.

Many seemed rather anxious and most were down right nevours. Their faces told it all. Unsure, expecting a locomotive to come rushing out of no where to just mow them down, lost. Being OGLs, we naturally wore our million dollar smile and then greeted them. Sheeparding them into their OGs, we too had to take our own OG's attandance. By 7.30AM,the zeroth hour, we were short by 3! OH DISCORDIA!

Thankfully, they did make their way in later, much to the relief of Suk, Liping and myself. Being a guy, i shall now comment on outstand indiviuals. lol. Naturally of the opposite sex.

There were a few notable ones. lol. A gal from Wheatly Sec, Two from Zhong Hua i think, i'll clarify tomorrow, one of which reminded me of a friend from CJC. lol. Another from CCHS, she is realli rather cute. I shan't mention any names for two reasons. 2 reasons. Firstly, cause i don't wish to be a pain in the arse to them by getting a whole busload of hot blooded males chasing after them. Secondly, casue i also can't really remeber their names. Ok... maybe one or two... maybe all... but lets just assume that i don't remember any ok? lol. Thank You! lol.

Oh! and should any one of from my good OG, be reading this entry, please forgive me if i didn't mention u. I am just basing this on just face value! lol. I have to give my comments! lol. It is simply human. I'm sure that deep down in all of you, you all are beautiful in terms of your personallity, character, soul. yep.

Later,after assembly, and cheering away in which only the OGLs did... we marched off to the New BLOCK ! lol. May wanted the entire of NAZGUL to follow her there... sadly, i didn't allow that heavy responsibility to rest on her alone. lol. OK, OK ! EXTRA lah! lol. so i helped her along. We, the entire of nazgul, arrived at the block on time. Phew! lol

Later, we played some ice breaker games.. unfortunately, we didn't managed to get the group fired up ... sorry guys! i just suppose that i just can't do it alone or even with the help of my two lovely, kindly, understanding, friendly and ever-smiling OGLs, Liping and Suk.

To Liping & Suk,

u two have been the best that a dumbarse like myself could ever wish to get as OGL mates. Thanks for standing my crap, cold jokes, la me jokes, and other kind of jokes. lol. U two have been a blast! lol. To 4 more Days of tollerating me = VEri Crapi Guy!!! lol. Thank Ya Both! BIG BIG! lol.

Eugene.

Subsequently, we played a few more games,the first being a torture=the memory cirle, duck duck goose, squrrel hunter, wacko and concerntation. Then we had a Faction cheering session adn the teaching of the school song! lol. Benjarmin can really lead! lol. Truely! lol

Then i ended up carrying about 15 og packs and 23 organisers three storries high and then about a total horizontal distance of 200 metres. phew! the damn thing must have weighted 20 kgs... or i am just damn weak... had to drop the entire package wehn i managed to enter the multi purpose hall. Ooopss... lol

Lunch followed, and i got the chance to mingle and talk to the J1s under my chrage... Interestingly, most were quite fun to talk to. though all were shy... Oh well, the first day is usually like this i guess? lol.

Then came the talks! 3 hours worth of these... i ended up taking a much needed resprite from the day's toil. Lunch made me feel so drained. Thankfully, everyone too felt the same. lol.

After the boredom eneded, we were treated to a nice preview of Summer Sunshine and AllStar by the SC. lol. a great time. lol. The applause from the J1s was instantaneous. lol. there was no need for any prompting. No need for anything. Once it ended, they all just... lol. Yep! lol. Clapped their hadns out. For both dances. lol. yeah! lol.

Had dinner with Chris and Jac. lol. Ya Fan! lol. i ended up having a free jia fan! lol. JAc dumped her half plate of rice onto my plate! lol. YEAH! lol. Overall? a rather nice way to start the new school year ! lol! YEAH!lol.

Oracl : Oh it is beautiful!
Oracl : Did you do it?
*Sati nod's head.
Sati : For Neo.
Sati : Will we be seeing him again soon ?
Oracl : I hope so dear.
Oracl : I do hope so.

The Matrix : REVOLUTION

Happy New Year!

2005-01-01T08:03:00.000-08:00

Morpheus : But how would that be different from any other day ?

The Matrix : RELOADED

The new year has arrived. Lol. To many people, it brings about many diferent emotions. From those who feel that it brings about a time of absolute hell! to those who feel that it should be a time for heaven. As for myself, i see it as a mixure of both.

It Will be time for the 'A's in around 10 months time.

It is a fact. It is unavoilable.

But so? What's the big deal? We've gone through the 'O' levels! so come on! just chill!

As for myself? i just feel thats its just another year. Funny that i should say it as such, since i criticise those who feel thats its all doom and gloom, but still, i have never really felt any big deal about the start about a new year. I take my years as they come, the days within? One day at a time.

One day at a time!
Sweet Jesus!
That is all that i'm asking of you.
Help me today!
Show me the way,
One day at a time.

One day at a time.
Christy Lane

As for the rest of the day, it passed as every other day, had maths, then church. LOl. my family left me for church. i had to run through about three HDB blocks in order to catch my dad's car. Thank you MA! if not i'd have to run to church.

After church, we went to J8 for dinner. After that, we headed over to popular. That was when i realised that me and my bro were a bunch of nuts. lol. we had headed all the way to yishun! and we still coudn't find the X10A FREEDOM gundam! and there it was all along! oh the irony! lol.

after getting Freedom, i got back, dropped everythin, and then ... lol. ruxhed off to Ikea! raided the hardware shop, being so professional that the sales people there were amazed and stunned by what had been chosen worthy enough to be purchased. lol. After that, i was then used like a guide dog cum work horse, leading my dad through the upper floor of the mega-store.

Weaving through the crowd like a needle through the tight layers of wool,like an annaconda through the weeds, i helped my father navigate through the upper floor in a pace that he would have been unable to accomplish on his own. Undoubttedly, he is excused due to his age, but still, if a 62 year old can do a 32km marathon, oh well, i guess that its cause my dad ain't 62 yet. lol. When he gets that age... imagine the wonders he'll be able to accomplish! lol.

then the pack horse part came and i had the hoonor of sellecting a few wooden planks. lol. i know, i know, i'm being rather unreasonable. what pack horse are you complaining about !? come on! carrying just three plants here and there ian't no big deal. Yeah... i know... but still, i had to choose froom a mountain of others who were rather similar and having a few splinters cunningly hidden among them. Thankfully, i have the skill, and more likely and thankfully, GOD's grace, thus i was spared the agony. lol. I LOVE THAT GUY! lol.

Morpheus : Tomorrow we may all be free.
Morpheus : Now tell me,
Morpheus : Isn't that worth fighting for?
Morpheus : Dying for?

The Matrix : RELOADED

Joy! Love! Peace! & Hope!

2004-12-25T23:59:00.000-08:00

25th December 2004

The first Noel the angel did say,
Was to certain poor shepherds in fields where they lay;
In fields where they did lay keeping their sheep,
On a cold winter’s night that was so deep.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel, Born is the king of Israel.

The First Noel.

WE three Kings of Orient are;
Bearing gifts we travel afar,
Field and fountain,
Moor and mountain,
Following yonder star!

Star of wonder,
Star of light!
Star of royal beauty bright!
Westward leading,
Still proceeding,
Guide us to thy perfect LIGHT.

We three kings.

Away in a manger, no crib for a bed.
The little Lord Jesus, laid down his sweet head.
The stars in the sky, looked down where he laid,
The little lord Jesus, Asleep on the hay.

Be near me Lord Jesus! I ask thee to stay!
Close by me forever, and love me I pray;
Bless all the dear children in thy tender care,
And fit us for heaven to live with there!

Away In A Manger.

LOL! I could simply go on with all these lovely hymns all day long! I seriously could! The joy of this day is simply overwhelming! A part of me tells me that the joy that I experience today is equalivent to that of my own marriage. Possible? Mayhap, for it is one that I feel speaks true, if but very rarely. If it is true, then I must really thank the LORD! For the joy that I experience today, that that courses through my very veins and rushes into my mind is quite unparallel to anything that I have experienced.

For the past few years, I have been rather down during Christmas. The atmosphere that I had sensed then was that of just the pure consumerism that the festive season brings. All that one can look forward is that of presents under the tree. The tree being artificial ,so as to prolong its existence, should also be nice looking, fibre optic according to the times. The presents too should be expensive. Hence the season brings about many branded goods. B.U.M, The Sahara Club, Ocean Pacific, Nike, Aiddas, Gucci, Prada, LV, Omega, Rolex… The list is endless. The point though is just this, besides filling their coffers with our hard earned money, the only other purpose is that they fill our desires. The joy of unwrapping the gift, the surprise that comes with the recognition of the product’s brand, the fulfillment that comes to both parties, the one who has finally received the Brand and to the one who had bought the product for the latter. Either way, both benefit. For a while at least.

However, if one has a rather analytical mind, one will soon start thinking, just how much did this gift cost? Then, one will start to think of how much one had spent on the person’s gift. Either way, the end results in either party feeling guilty as they had not been able present the other with a present that was at least equalivent to that the other’s.

Soon after that bout of guilt, one would then also just be able to get over the glam of the gift. Then one will start to fell rather bored. The anticipation that had built up for this day, rather the moment, more specifically the opening of gifts. Once the moment has passed, give it an hour or two, (five if one has gotten some especially fantastic brand like LV or Prada) the ordinariness of the day will start to flood in. Undoubted those with like a Christmas party planned for the evening would argue that no! It is not boring! However, ask yourself frankly, do you really feel happy? If so, then for what reason? That you finally have the Ocean Pacific broadshorts? Or is it the Quicksilver Shirt? Or is it cause of the company that you have at the party?
If it is any of the above reasons? Then just go throw yourself in a lake.

You got it wrong. Really wrong.

The reasons why one should feel happy on this Special day is all because of this very simple fact. This is the day that we receive our SALVATION. The Ticket to Heaven. The Prince of Peace has been born to us! The very reason for our redemption has just been put onto our plane of existence. Jesus, has entered the building.

The presents, gifts and parties that come along with the day are simply add-ons. They mean nothing in the long run. Why? Cause, in the long run, they will all wear out. What we eat and drink will not fill us forever. What we have now will not last forever. Even what we are will not last forever. The true joy of the season is all due to Mary’s little boy child: Jesus.

To the non-Christians that may chance upon this entry, I hope that this entry that I have entered will spark a little curiosity in you. With that spark, I hope that you will venture out onto this vast online domain and check out this great religion.

As for myself? I have finally been shown the great mystery that is this season. And a great mystery it has been to me for the past few years. Now I rejoice. The joy that I gain is no longer that of the superficial but that of which this day has been made for.

Of course I am also only human, and thus, I too feel the joy as I open my presents under the tree. The happiness that comes from receiving my very first Nike Dry Fit! An Aiddas shirt as well. The Quick Silver Shirt. Lol. INDEED! It did feel good. But as I had said, for once I did not feel empty after all that was over. In fact it continued. After tea, we went round to Junction 8, my family and I. Realising that they did not stock what my ma needed for the spagatti, muscles, we trooped over to the older one.

Finally, in the evening we went over to my Grandma’s for the Christmas party. With our exclusive and exquisite pasta, containing the muscles and other shellfish all of which we had pan fired with butter and loads of garlic. Magnificenti! Our relations too enjoyed the cussin.

We tucked in to the many sausages filled to the point of bursting with Cheddar cheese. Fresh mushrooms, pan-fried with garlic, butter and herbs. Shepard’s Pie, loaded of beef, rich cheese and finely mashed potatoes. Chicken thighs, tender and roasted with rosemary, thyme and then left to stew in its juices that it had so willingly gave up in the heat of the oven. Its skin now a crispy golden brown. The multi-colour salad, full of cabbages, succulent cherry tomatoes, apples, grapes, cucumbers and many an exotic green. This was well matched with a fantastic salad dressing, exquisite to the palate and yet not too strong to overwhelm one. Creamy soup, filled with Cod, potatoes, tomatoes, clam, carrots. A layer of oil did nestle on its top, but it was only Cod oil, rich with fatty Omega Three Acids and other nutrients. A potato and egg salad also laid its fair clam to the dinner table. With its rich tasting Irish potatoes and freshly boiled eggs, it was cheerfully slushed with butter, Motseralla Cheese melted on its top. A cold bowl of soft punch had been prepared also. Within it laid a treasure of diced pineapples, pears, peaches, coconut chunks and cherries.

Desert consisted of carrot cake, richly stuffed with macadamian nuts amongst others. Quey Lapis, its alternating bands of dull gold and light brown melting on one’s tongue. Brownies, choked with chocolate chips and almonds. Afraid that it was not enough festive enough, it was also sprinkled with icing sugar. All these served on a silver platter, delicate carvings of some ancient scene embodied onto it.

A French 2000 Cheatue Le Aubri was served. It had this fruity flavour, filled with apricots and cherries. As it flowed down one’s tongue, it left a rather exquisite aftertaste, one with just the barest hint of strawberries and a tinge of grapefruit.

After that, we had our after dinner conversations, and lo and behold! My elder cousin’s girl friend talked to me! She is rather pretty and I can see why he chose her. Any more description would be apt generate some rather un-welcomed attention. She is rather easy going, but shy. Lol. Never mind, I sound like a paradox. I wish them both the best of luck!

The exchange of presents was then conducted, and I received the usual, clothes. Lol. But nicer ones this year! Lol. Nicest of all was the G.A.P pullover from America that my aunt had brought back from her trip with my two cousins. Overall, a rather Christmas nice year! Lol.
Best of all, I had remembered thee true meaning of Christmas.

I had finally remembered the face of my Heavenly Father.

Joy to the world!
The Lord has come!
Let Earth receive her king!
Let every heart,
Prepare him room,
And Heaven and nature Sing!
And heaven and Nature Sing!
And HEAVEN, and HEAVEN and Nature SING!

Joy To The World

Bliss!

2004-12-24T04:05:00.000-08:00

24th December 2004

Neo : Trinity! I wish you could see this!
Neo : Its like a whole city made out of light!

The Matrix : REVOLUSION

After a good rest, I awoke to find that it was 12.58pm. lol. The anger, but most of all hurt of last night’s incident faint, but still lurking. As I awaited my father’s arrival, bring with him my brunch, the IKEA people arrived and they began their task of assembling the new television rack. Dad came home as they were about done and I enjoyed my brunch and he, his lunch as they packed up and left. One of them had come before and remembered too! Lol. Overall, they were two jolly good men, wishing us Merry Christmas! And giving us a present, a customer relations form which they helped us to fill due to the furniture being damaged when it arrived from the warehouse.

Shortly, my mother arrived home. I couldn't bring myself to speak to her. My dad as well. The anger was overwhelming. The silence, deafening. She tried to talk to me and was ignored. If she could think that I would say that to her, then there was no point in my replying to her was there? Both of them decided to have tea at the dinner table. With raised voices, they both began to lament about people, ME , not being matured enough to forgive and forget. This was furthered followed by the stressing of blood ties and seniority. His own mother also can like that…

I found both their arguments and their entire conversation a rather pathetic and rather the paradox. Considering what they had said the nigh before,

You called me the F word behind my back.

And

It doesn't matter. You did it! In the past!

I wondered how mature they are as well. As for the blood ties? The storming away as I said that I was her own son seemed to have told me much about how much it meant. My heart hardened and I became even more steadfast in what was termed ,Rightful Anger!.

However, anger, regardless of what the situation, is still a useless and Sinful emotion. Right or wrong, it is still a trap that will snare you once you have released it. And anyway, it was still CHRISTMAS EVE!

As I stayed in my room, I reflected. God's grace was showered upon me. It had to be! There is really not much I can explain, but for once, the muddle-headedness was cleared and I slowly but surely managed to chain and bind that demon, anger. Forgiveness came next.

Like air rushing in to fill the vacuum left by a nuclear detonation, forgiveness flooded into me like a dam that had burst. I realized that regardless of what she had said, she was my mother. My one and only mother. What she had done to me the night before was but her venting her frustrations of my sister unto me. The stress and worry that my sister had put onto her must have been too great. The fact that she had been able to withhold so many but this one out burst was an achievement. I strongly doubt I could have done so.

We are only human, and sometimes, lashing out at the nearest object that doesn't agree with what we believe in just feels so right. I’ve been there. I've done that. I’ve hurt many a person with my unthoughful words and actions. Unlike her, I may have realized my mistake earlier, but still, the deed had been done.

So if those people had the guts and grace to forgive me, this ungrateful wretch, why not me, my mother?

It was then that my sister had arrived home and had straight away rushed off to her room to wrap up the gifts. I the remembered her gift that still lay, hidden and unwrapped in my cupboard. I went over to my mother and then asked politely if she could do the honors for me.

She had been rather quiet after the loud conversation with my dad, but now, a smile danced onto her faced, and this new life just busted out of her. Happily she obligided. She also took the opportunity to say how glad she was that I had the brains to understand… There was no apology, and knowing her, there would not be one. I also took the opportunity to say a few words of my own.

Ma, if I were to say the F word to you? I would not do it behind your back.
I would do it in your face.

She nodded and smiled. Not a forced one. But rather one of pride? I could not read what the emotion was. I walked off to get a drink.

Dinner was served at The Crystal Jade Restaunt. This was the second time we had sampled their food, and at least this time, we had the fore knowledge. DO NOT! ORDER THE SET! They are just not filling enough! Lol. Ordering two Sang Min, a bowl of rice, a bowl of congee, a clay pot of beef with tendon (OH! The bliss…), a plate of vegetables and another bowl of a different kind, we feasted. Lol.

Some how , the meal tasted very good. Even better then normal! Lol. I suppose, forgiveness adds an additional element to the meal! Lol. For everyone! Lol. That’s the best !lol.

Following that, we went home, and an hour later, we went to church. The Mid-Night Mass awaited. His Birth awaited. My Savior awaited. As we waited for the doors to the second level to open, I marveled at how many people were decked out in their finest! Lol. On entry, I got a better view.

After taking my place, I began to observe the on coming crowd. Undoubtedly, there were many the pretty face about. What’s more they were decked out in their After-Party outfits. Some were simply beautiful. There were at least 15, singles of my age, who I would describe as pretty and 5 of which are beautiful. Funny enough, I received a few looks too from these fifteen.

The caroling then began at 11.30pm. The Choir began their joyous routine with gusto and it was warmly received! It s necessity was not really required though. The atmosphere on entry was one of great joy! Lol. The very air crackled with LOVE, HOPE, PEACE and JOY! There was not a face with out the barest hint of a smile. The Heavenly Father had indeed been gracious with his peppering of these four gifts on us pathetic mortals. May all the EARTH BLESS YOU DEAR LORD!

Then at 12 midnight, the mass started. The joy just seemed to grow! With every opportunity to sing praise to the LORD, the congregation grew steadfastly louder and cheerful! The Purity and sheer happiness as the mass progressed just seemed to multiply at a GODLY pace! The readings sending joyous shivers of HOPE and LOVE to many a folk.( Me included.) PEACE being lauded with the responsal psalm. Even the homely, being delivered by the certain priest whom lacked the ability to capture the attention of the audience managed to do so this faithful nigh! PRAISE THE LORD!

As we wished each other peace, I did so with the happiest of heart. For I had done so, with Christ’s Wisdom earlier this very day and it was only through his will that I had managed to do so! Lol. GOD! THANK YOU SSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH! YOU ROCK!

Through out this time, when it was time for the hymns, I managed to send out my Christmas greetings to many, all the contacts on my Handphone’s address book. After the mass, the flood of replies swamped me. Lol.

I retired unto my bed, a tired and yet JOYous and LOVEd son. Entering my dreams filled with HOPE and PEACE!

Silent Night, Holy Night.
All is calm, all is bright.
Down yond virgin, sweet mother and child.
Holy Infant, so tender and mild.
Sleep in heavenly peace.

SLEEP IN HEAVENLY PEACE.

Silent Nigh.

Glammed

2004-12-23T04:04:00.000-08:00

23rd December 2004

Morpheus : Take the blue one and I’ll show you just how deep the rabbit hole goes.
*Neo reaches out for the blue.
Morpheus : Remember, all I’m offering is the truth.
Morpheus : Nothing else.

The Matrix

I awoke early today! Lol. For once it was before 11am! Lol. Well, not much of a choice there. When one has to go to Orchard Road by 11.30 am, well, the chances of getting there on time and waking at 11 am are rather slim.

Dressed in a converse jersey and broad shorts, I made my journey down to the shopping haven.
Thankfully the afternoon crowd was not present, their migration still far from motion, save in their minds. Still, as I boarded the train, I received many a look.

(Many may at this point, feel that I am being just too self conscious and even big headed. Mayhap they are right, and I am just being too big for my boots, but still, I do not think that I am that silly. Not yet at least. Lol.)

I seldom look around, save when I first enter a place. Then after that, I only do so when I feel that I am being observed. This time, when I took my place, standing and not holding any object for support, I could feel this constant stare. Correction, these. Lol. I am serious! Lol. For a moment I was wondering why? Were my shorts unzipped? Was there dried snort dangling on my upper lip? Was there this big zit that was growing and GLOWING on the tip of my nose?!?!
Pray tell!

Thankfully none of the above were present.

It was then that I suppose the obvious dawned. The shirt! Lol. The sleeveless shirt! Lol. The jersey! Following the line of sight, with the help of their reflection in the dark windows, of one those apparently lost souls, I followed and was led to a stunning conclusion! Lol. My arms! Lol. To be precise, my biceps. As the truth dawned, I wondered, why? Lol. What thoughts circulated in their minds? Judging form the feedback during the Sunday class, I was hoping that they were right? Lol. Hopefully? Lol. Thankfully, all those that stared were GALS and WOMEN!

Alighting at the station, I caught a glimpse of what look like sadness as I left the carriage. Will I ever see him again? Was splashed all over those whom I had left behind. Lol.

*Ok ok! Lol. Maybe not all! Lol. But there were a few! Lol. From GIRLS MY age or younger alright?

I then boarded the right bus and headed out for Jac’s house. Arriving there I was greeted by her dog, Hairy! Lol. The boring details aside, I basically helped her bring down a 9 kilo Christmas tree and carried it all the way to Chris’s house. Muttu INDEED! Lol.

Finally at Chris’s we setup the thing after lunch. The sheer abomination had the sheer size that could not have been imagined considering its packaging. It was rather troublesome too… lol. In the end, we finished it in good time and had a good time decorating it up. How Shinny! Lol.

After that… Lol. I became more highly acquainted with Dr Gordon’s life. I still have not been able to load up on the nice firepower, but the reality is stunning! The life likeness and the smoothness of the landscape. My… As I carried on with the game, the others, cheed, ponged and hued away. Lol.

It was at around 7.30pm that I received this call that I had a physics class…
Suddenly, the memory flooded back to me. The game had suddenly lost its glam on me. Hurried I thanked Chris for the great time I had and then, I ran home. Literally. Sprinting the distance was an exhilarating experience. After doing 200 meters, sprinting up 8 flights of staircases is not in the least bit that fun anymore. It is BREATHE TAKING! Lol. After that, I rushed back down and did another 300 meters, give or take, and busted into the class. It took a total time of 4 minutes.

The gals again did the same and so did my friends and teach. Lol. I didn’t have time to change. Later, at the Kopidiam, I wolfed down a waffle and Milk Tea. I hadn’t had a bit to eat since 12pm. The others were supposed to be downing Carlsberg but weren’t. lol. I would have joined them but beer on an empty stomach is just courting a Merlion.

I came back home, rather drained, and ate me dinner. After that and a bath, I received a tongue- lashing. Apparently my sister had gone out for some Christmas Party with her bball mates. The trouble was that she hadn’t told my parents when to pick her up. The time then was 10pm.

My mother began to worry, like all good mothers do. Then as the Jedi’s go, worry leads to fear! Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to resentment. Resentment leads to hate. Hate leads to… But we all already know where this is going. She stopped at anger, or hate, I have no idea. Regardless, she first broke down and cried. All the while going on about how my sister should just stay out and not come back home. This was followed by many a tear. My dad then went to her and told her how he had gone past this stage. How he had learnt not to feel sad anymore about this. She cried.

How does telling her that HELP in ANYWAY ,dad ?!?!?! HOW ?!?!?! Please, F***ING enlighten me!

She then turned ballistic, and then turned her wrath onto me. What I had done, I had no idea. I was then accused of not doing the household chores. Not washing my cutlery, not doing anything to help out at home. I was keeping cool through all this, I had totally pretended to ignore all these hurtful words. Seeing as how this failed to provoke me in any manner, she then shot off once more salvo.

You call me the F word behind my back!

It may sound childish to you, it does a bit to me now as I recall it, but it did hurt then. It did more damage to me than any physical wound could. It hit home. It really did.

Turning towards her, my eyes filling, I could only shout back at her. Not vulgarities mind you, but my defenses.

When did I say that? Why would I say that ? Why should I say that ? What would make me say that? Under what circumstance would I be driven to say that?

Her reply was that of one convinced of my guilt and yet shamefully without substance.

It doesn’t matter. You did it! In the past!

This coming out of anyone else’s mouth, I would just brush aside, all of it, but yet it has only come out once, and from the one person that I have loved through and through for all the 17 years of my existence on this planet. My heart broke. The pain, physical, mental tore through me like a hurricane, sweeping away any coherent though or carefully laid defense that I might have prepared while she had accused me of those minor incidents.

I could only reply, too stunned and shaken to do otherwise.

I would never have done any thing such as that mother. As your own son, do you think that I had done that? I would, could and will never say anything such as that behind your back mother!

She left.

As to the earlier parts, I did my fair share still! I did what they told me! Take down the clothes, wash the dishes, mop the floor, I had even cleaned the window panels and the fan blades and grills too during Chinese New Year earlier this year! All of that willing enough! And yet I am accused of not being a helpful member of the family. Treating the house like a hotel.
My sister does that. Not me. And still…

As for the calling of that behind her back? I would never do that! Never! If I really wanted to call her that? If I really had the guts or stupidity to do so ?
I’d do it in her face.

Commander Lock : I wish I could only comprehend the council’s decision.
Councilor : Comprehension is not a requisite of cooperation.

The Matrix : RELOADED

Ecstasy

2004-12-22T23:59:00.000-08:00

22nd December 2004

Captain Mifune : All right!
Captain Mifune : KUNCKLE UP!!!

The Matrix : REVOLUTIONS

LOL. My day didn’t really start till after 3:45pm. The time before that was more or less devoted to my ruthless conquest of Stephen King’s The Dark Tower. How it described the innocence’s of youth, love found, love enjoyed, love created, love. It combined this potent force with that of another, destiny, Ka. What made the reading even more ecstatic, was its settings.

Set in the dying world of All-World, The Ka-Tet of Roland of Gileard, The Last Gunslinger, with his Ka-Mai, Eddie Dean Of New York, Susannah Dean Of New York, John ‘Jake’ Chambers also of New York and Oy of Mid World now travel on the path of the ever-weakening beam of the turtle and bear. Their Quest is the Dark Tower, The Nexus of many a world. Lol. Regardless, if I were to go on further, many would simply collapse from boredom.

Today I FINALLY! Managed to meet up with my brothers! Guo Hua, now doing Aeronautical engineering and John Chan of CJ. Hallelujah! I have indeed received an early Christmas present; Them! J With such a fine company of friends, lol, what more could one ask for?

We met at 3:45pm at Plaza Sing. For once I was late! Lol. Our first stop ? The Atms. Lol. I discovered that being 192 is rather fun. Lol. Or at least it seems that way. Lol. You get to stare directly into the security cameras or use your hand to block. Lol. Funny stuff indeed. Lol. After getting what we had come for, money and some fun, lol, we then headed up to GV. Lol.

Finally! I have watched Ocean’s 12. lol. We bought the tickets for the 4.30 show. Having twenty plus minutes to kill, we decided to play a bit at E-Zone. Lol. But, due to my fantastic sense of direction, John’s as well as Guo Hua, lol, we ended up back at the Cinema. Lol. It was then that I remembered that I had wanted to get a Hip Wing. Lol. A Deuter Waste Pouch. Lol. But I like the way that Deuter has named it. Lol.

Indecision has been one of my faults. Sometimes major, other times minor, all depending on the situation. Indeed it has cost me dear in many a situation, but where others see cost, I see opportunity. I have learnt from all these silly times and thus have at least can say that I am at least at the a stage whereby I can make up my mind with much less time needed. And this time, the time taken would have been used to consider viable alternatives and a very quick cost benefit weighing, instead of a jumble of frivolous thoughts. And thus! I have managed to secure the last of the Hip Wing 300 series ! Yay! Lol.
*Sorry Nette but if you want I don’t mind going out with ya to help ya buy one too. (See! I so nice one! Lol.

Shortly after, we headed up again, this time, there was about only about three minutes left till show time. We then decided to hit the Ocean’s Twelve Combo. It was then that this girl tapped John. Lol.[ Not shoulder, he’s just too TALL!!! Lol. ] He turned and recognized her immediately.
“You! When did ya come back?” Lol. Ok, so maybe not immediately, lol, he had forgotten her name. Lol. I then turned, and was stunned. Lol. Damn she was HOT! It was then I just waved absent-mindedly. Lol. (BEING POLITE ALRIGHT?) lol.

She then turned to my direction. Lol.

“Hey! I remember You!” a smile forming on her face. Lol. Damn, I don’t remembered how but I must have snapped out of my status of being frozen by her beauty cause the clogs in my brain had begun to spin. She too had forgotten my name. Lol As I, hers. Lol. She then turned and after saying good-bye to both of us, she left. Lol. THEN! I remembered her name! Lol.

She was a friend that I made in the first three months in CJ canoeing. She came from SN. Her name is Charlene. I then realized why I didn’t recognized. Man! She had changed! Australia had made her more matured, more sexy(if that’s possible?) lol. She now was not just pretty, she now seemed more sophisticated. The way she carried herself. The way she dressed. What she wore, lol, now I realized why I was dazed. Her from showed off her clevergae, well tanned too if I may add, it also had this sense of class mixed in. It didn’t give her a sluttish appearance, rather it enhanced her features. What she before she had left was girlish beauty, now when she returned, she was decked out in a women’s sophistication, poise and ravish ness.
She has one HELL of a lucky BF! Lol.

After that mind blowing encounter, our ka tet, of John, Guo Hua and me then rushed over to the cinema, if but a little less winded. Lol. You can’t blame us Ok!!!

Ocean’s Twelve was fantastic. I shan’t spoil it anymore then it has been by the media. One of the most enjoyable scenes was the part where by the entire of Ocean’s Eleven is locked up in the same cell. Lol. Simply Delicious! Lol. Truly! Lol.

After that great movie, we trooped down to Paradeze Center. Then, the carnage began. Lol. As we took on the heavy mantle of General, we then hurried against the enemy, rushing against time. At last the Zero Hour dawned and after beating back the waves of enemy troops who were only like the tide: beating uselessly onto the beach, their masters having sent them to die needlessly for no logical reason foreseeable. Our three factions then dealt to them the blow that was what they had deserved. The bullet to the brain which they had been craving for with all their constant barrages of bullets. With one fell swoop, we ended their petite existence. Victory was ours. So fell the duo medium threats and the easy one. And so the surroundings did shake with thunder!

After a brief respire, we joined forces again, our trinity, and this time we were vastly outnumbered. As we sensed the impending doom, we did not surrender, for there was honor only lies in death. To the very last man we fought! Against the waves of pounding attackers, we were vastly out numbered. As my brother’s camps bore the brunt of the enemy’s mindless assault, I gave them as much assistance as I could. Sending my legions to their aid while I fortified my own defenses against an ever growing torrent of their tanks, infantry and other assailments of their creation.
In the end, I ended up as the last shinning bastion of our once glorious empire. Under heavy siege and battery, I was spared the unthinkable by John.

Afterwards, we joined a Counterstrike game that was in progress and in short? We all became free Frags. The opposing team was one filled with two front men, and two campers. After being tired of their ways, we decided to create and play Battlefield 1942: Vietnam. Being infantry was never this good. Lol. As we covered the dying terrain of Saigon, we battled the Americans. The usage of an AK-47 had never felt so good. Lol.

Oh! And I am really sorry, Lynette! I don’t really think when I play. So Sorry.

We had dinner at Bugger King. The time was 10pm. Lol. Of course, being around two canoeist, naturally, we had to sprint all the way back to Plaza Sing. Lol. There is an advantage to having formerly been a Canoeist. Lol. You can at least keep up. Lol. Weaving our way through the human traffic, we arrived at the joint. Lol. Sweaty. Lol. We downed our meals in a jiffy and were on the 10.30 train. Lol. We missed the earlier one, but that was cause my fast food, was so fast, that I had finished my burger and the waitress still had not come with my order of fries. Very speedy indeed! Lol. Indeed!

I finally reached home at 11.30pm. Talked on the phone till 3.30 am. Lol. After that, sleep followed, like a lover who has waited too long for one.

Zee : You didn’t wear it!
Link : You kidding?!?
Link : After this?
Link : I’m never going to take it off!

The Matrix : REVOULTIONS

Dawning

2004-12-21T23:35:00.000-08:00

Morpheus : Operator, Link? What just happened back there ?
Link : I don’t know sir, agents just suddenly pooped out of nowhere.
Morpheus : And how is Neo ?
Link : You should have seen him Morpheus!
Morpheus : Ok, then where is he now ?
Link : He’s doing the superman thing.

The Matrix : RELOADED

LOL! I have finally understood the shopping part of the women’s psyche! As a masculine member of our species, for the past decade and a half a dozen, I’ve been puzzled by this ritual that most members of the opposite sex venture into. Some on a monthly basis, others on a weekly basis and yet, others who engage in this venture as a daily routine, equivalent as that of brushing of teeth, or drinking a glass of water.

What is it that they enjoy about this? As a young child at the tender age of five, I was already brought into many a torture chamber. Unlike those described in Han’s Christian Anderson’s classics, they were neither dark nor dinky. Nor did they smell foul, oozing with the putrid stench of death and decay. Neh, they did not. Neither did they hold a vast array of various torture instruments, rusted, with a cake of blood, some dried, others still dripping, fresh!, nor were there screams of pain excruciating. Howls of agony and anguish were notably absent, as were the pathetic pleas for mercy, water or food. Rather, the place was brightly lit, with a fine décor.

On entrance, as with most of these modern chambers, the smells of a hundred different concoctions, all safely bottled up in their respective small and weirdly shaped containers, would perforate the atmosphere. Quite the change from the putrid stench of rot that the old people used in their time but still, the purpose was still rather akin. It was a declaration of one’s willing entry, or unwilling in my case and those of the past, into the lair of the beast. What follows that, as one ventures deeper into this ungainly modern dungeon, is usually a show of its vast interior.

Usually one enters into one of these chambers through these metallic automated stairwells. The purpose I had assumed then, at the young and easily influenced age of five, was to make it more accessible due to the great size that most of these chambers now enthralled. Later I realized its true purpose. It was just part of the setup! It was a rather sly tactic, one that did work on me at that age. It was a show of might.

Besides simply just wagging a war of wounds on one’s physical body, its bloodthirsty creators had the twisted mind to also wage a war of wounds on one’s mental self! Oh! The sheer evil ingenuity of it all! How well planed this trap had been drawn! OH DISCORDIA!

After the sheer lucidity of the size of this chamber has sunk in and deep, into one’s core, a sudden feeling of despair will be sure to follow. As one is led deeper into the maze of racks, filled not with human, screaming, bodies but rather with one curtail of clothes after another, the sense of helplessness will start to cling onto one’s heart. Like a leech, it will drain one’s hopes of ever returning from this crusade unscarred. The sheer vastness of the trap will ensure to that.

On and on your custodian will lead one. Deeper and deeper into this maze where only madness must be waiting, patiently, silently, hungrily as a predator waits for its prey. The madness is complete when one looks, pleadingly, unwillingly, uncontrollably onto the face of the one who is hauling one deeper into this hell. It is one’s mother.

Oh the horror! Oh the betrayal! Oh the senselessness of it all!!! How could she? How could she do this?!?! The mere though of this would be blasphemy onto the noble bond that was created when one first entered into this world through her. The actual committing of it! How? How? How?

The realization of this is enough to leave one flabbergasted and mute for the rest of the time until one has finally reached the final destination. The women’s apparel section. The very core of this dungeon where the beast resides. As one creeps into the lair, there is no stealth that can hide one’s self from the beast. It knows its hole only too well. As It springs, alas! There one falls. The beast has won. As it devours one, you lay there, numb, unthinking. It plunges its dripping fangs into one’s unprotected body, puncturing one’s unblemished skin. As the venom courses through one’s veins, it howls in triumph as it has yet again made another conquest! Another victim. Another easy prey. Another child.

As one lays there, helpless, one would like to know what it was that has bested one. And as one has searched so one will find. At the entrance into this section, one read off the letters on the signboard as Women’s Apparel. Now, the words resolve themselves into the beast’s true name. Boredom.

As one moans and groans in agony, time passes slowly, every minute taking what seems like eternity to pass, every second ; a hundred years. Finally, your custodian realizes your existence. Released from the spell from which has snared her too, she then hurries to this section, this hidden section, in the dungeon. There, a stash of weapons awaits one. Bows, arrows, swords, knives, guns, the works. But most importantly, the anti venom! As one approaches it, one again loses hope, for it lies ruined. Nothing but a tangle of its former self. Nonetheless, there is hope still. It can be rebuild! The antidote’s name; Lego. Armed, ready and well again, one now hunts the beast. The tables are turned, and now the hunter becomes the hunted. The prey the predator.

The eradication begins with its minions. As doubt and fear are gutted, one soon discovers that the true name of this abode ,slaughterhouse, is well given. Soon, one faces their master, the beast. The battle is furious but still futile. It cannot win. Soon it lies at one’s feet, the creature still unwilling to admit defeat for it does not know how nor what the word entails. The death stroke is deal. The beast is no more.

However, I am no longer that age, and thus have to keep an open mind. Lol. Thus the above that you have read is just ,lol, me flexing my linguistic muscles. Lol. =p

The day went off great, and after my lunch I followed my ma off to Christmas shopping. We went to basically three places, and if I were to describe all that is detail or as I would like, you, reader, would definitely die in your seat before you are done. Lol. [As would I of course ;] Lol. After again! having to encroach onto the thin line that separates normal women’s clothes and their undergarments, I have realized that when I shop with my ma again, I will definitely STEER CLEAR of that section and NOT follow blindly as I usually do !!! The number of stairs from middle age women was , lol, not very nice. The looks of interest and winks from the younger members of their sex however… lol. lol.

Oh, and the reason why they like shopping is all cause of the buying part. Lol. The part where they get to use their Blue note, or debit card.
*If I got it wrong, then just simply tag your reason. Lol.

Morpheus : Stop trying to hit me and HIT ME !

The Matrix

After that mad rush I went to shop with Lynette! Lol. The poor thing had a flu, but still was a sport to come out with me. Lol. We went on a Deuter waist pouch hunt. We first went to storm the outdoor thing-a-ma-gic store at J8. lol. It did sell the waist pouches, but the prices on them were simply ridiculous! Let me put it this way, if I had that money, I could but the bloody haversack instead! We then rushed down to AMK, to the Sportslink that I didn’t knew existed till of yesterday. Lol. It did sell! Lol. But only pink ones !!!! :P In other words, it was a blue milk run. Lol. We then separated, I had to head back home, Nette decided to try Tampiness. Lol. Hope that you bought your bag ya! Lol.

Then at my physics class, I decided to wear a sleeveless Converse jersey. Lol. I entered and then, lol, all hell broke loose. Lol. For 10 seconds. Lol. The guys were like, WOW! So big biceps! Lol. Even my teach commented the same. Lol. What a bunch of jokers. Lol. They had bigger ones! For sure! Lol. The gals, lol, began to giggle and whisper among themselves on the sight of me. Lol. However I wonder what that means? Lol. There were also constant glances in my direction, but nah, Must be cause they admired MS. However I wonder what that means if they were not? Lol. Had Great Fun! Lol. I never knew that Yao Fong could bully Simion[ hope I got your name right dude! ], but hey ! I was wrong! Lol. Hao Ge also managed to make it for the class! Lol. But still! I Don’t see what’s the big deal with my biceps! Lol. They really do look small to me ! lol. Must TRAIN!!! Lol. Have motivation le !!! Lol.

Merovigian : You will handle us?
Merovigian : You will HANDLE us?
Merovigian : Your predecessors had more respect!
Merovigian : Kill him.
*Neo stops bullet barrage with his hand.
Merovigian : Ok, you have some skill.

The Matrix : RELOADED

Confoundation!

2004-12-20T23:00:00.000-08:00

Why WHy WHY do u persist !

Mr Smith
The Matrix:REVOLUTION

This is the phrase that i utter, silently, wordlessly, sadly, everytime i pass a smoker.
In the modern day society, a percular trend has picked up. Now a days, majourity of smokers are emerging from eve's side of the human race. As more and more of the carriers for our specise's future begin to get into this worrying trend, it makes me wonder, exactly what is it that maeks them do it? What pushes them to do this? The need to fit in? Are they naturally social outcasts?

More often then not, those that do smoke do not look the part. They look rather pretty, not spotting an elephant's grid, size, nor weight. Their dress sense is also typical of those who know how the system operates; they are not nut jobs. Their preditory expression while they suck on their coffin nails does not hint of any stressful task having to be or having been performed in the near future or the past repectively. Etiher way, if there is a real reason for this pathetic habbit.

True, some might be from a gang, a typical "Lian" just trying to fit the desciption or a rite of passage for entry into the protection of these street thugs.With their promises of protection, compainonship and goodness knows whatelse, what is a little cigrette compared to all that? Unfortnately, due to their own reasons, they do not realise that all those promises are but lies. Would they really stand by you should one really get into a fight with another gang? Perhaps. Most likely they would. But if you were to die in that fight? Where would they be then? Mourning your death as you lie in a pool of crimson? Griefing as the wailing of sirens and the flickering of those blue and red lights draw inexplicitly closer to your now lifeless corspe?

No. They would not.

They would not stick around to admisister any first aid that might have been able to snatch you back from the waiting jaws of death.They would not shed a tear as they saw your mortal shell collapse and then go through the unstoppable shakings as most bodies do when they die from a haemorage; your's caused by someone whom you have no idea or quam with, who managed to land a clear blow with his steel pipe onto your un protected skull.
Regardless, it would be doing her a favour. The effects of those cigrettes, coffin nails as i like to call them, are not very pleasent, and they do take longer to kill one. lol. One will not be able to have children, cause one's womb is now nestling a tumor, one may not be able to talk casue one's throat is swallon with a cancerous growth.

Went for a movie in the evening with da ge, er mei and siao mei, National Treasure.
Rather inetersing stuff, although the part about the free masons was rather accurate, with at least 9 US presidents being in the ss. I had read up on the subject after Angels and Demons by Dan Brown. The part about the Kinghts of Templar finding the treasure was interesting. All that part was true, however , no one really knows what they found. The only was that the thing that they found was very powerful. Once they were back in Europe, they became a formidible society. lol. Hence, a silmilarity of both stories, they employ this myth. The myth of the Templar's source of power.

We had fun after the movie. lol. Xiao Mei can testify. lol. She got it good. lol. Er Mei only went to see the train. She got on ! lol. And she know's where to pinch ! lol. Da ge should agree. lol. Er mei and mi just chilled. lol. Front seats. lol. :)

Also on our way back, we passed this young fellow, puffing away like a locomoative on his coffin nail. On his face was this look of arrogance, as though puffing his life away on this expensive piece of dung was equilivant to him entering Harvard, or recieving the President's Scholarship. He had also gelled his hair up, looking rather, in a tactful manner , unusual. In a straight forward manner, dumb. In another less civilised manner, like a walking piece of s..t lol. Never the less, he could puff away for all i care. lol. The econmoy needs to be fueled by the circulation of cash, if this smartarse wants to fuel it,needlessly, then be my guest! Puff your lungs, heart, and brains [if any] out !
But don't do it in my face, or one of these days, i'll stick it up yours.
*sorry if i ended off so standoff-ish, but i just wanna say my mind.

Neo : Is that your point councillor?
Councillor : No, there is no point.
Councillor : Old men like me, we don't bother with points.
Councillor : There is no point.
Neo : Is that why there are no young men on the council, councillor?
Councillor : Good Point.

The Matix : REVOLUTION

Bemusement

2004-12-20T02:24:00.000-08:00

Neo : The code here seems different.
Morphous : How different?
Neo : It seems encrypted.
Trinity : Is it good for us ,or bad for us ?
Neo : It seems , every floor is wired with explosives.
Trinity : Bad for us.

The Matrix : RELOADED.

LOL.One of my favourite lines from the series. The simplicity and the purity of the flow of though. It is simply delicious.

Today was great. I felt the joy of comsumerism. lol. I awoke, shoved down breakfast, meditated on my porceline throne, then i rushed out to follow mi ma to a sale. lol.

I have always had this distaste for shopping. It is like, guys, are on one plane, shopping on another. I doubt that i will ever like it. Oh well, at least i got something nice from the torture that it was. Finally, a NIKE-Dry Fit! lol. yay !! lol. I know, i know, it is very common, and its no big deal for many but i always do not spurge. So this is my first one !!! lol. So damn happy about it !!! Many may not understand my joy, after all it is no big deal but i like to celebrate the small things in my life. lol. This is something a bit more medium then small to me ! lol. of course, i had rotted away ,just the same, for that. lol.

After that, went home. lol. Feasted on the King of fruits ! HEAVENLY !!! With its soft, creamy whiteish-yellow exterior, combined with the fragarent scent that few can resist with out making a comment (LOL).All this protects the hard,defiant seed that lives beneth this shell of absoute grandeur. This jewel that nature has so graciously endowed to us, mere creatures made out of the dust that we will become yet again, serves to bring us some poigant relief from the monotony of our usual substinace; the other lower ranks in their kingdom of Seeds. lol.

Had a seista, then was shaken awake by my ma. lol. For once, i understood what was going on at mi physics class. lol Felt damn proud when i finally did a sum all by myself and faster then JR . lol. Of Course with a bit of help from MS. HE's a Great guy from HCJC. lol. ROBBOTS IN DISGUISE! lol.

Afterward, went to Ikea! lol. the restaraunt is nothing special. The portions are miniscue, the prices off the roof, the dinning space insufficient. Although, there was this chic that was looking around for a seat. Man. lol.

I've realised that some women, will do what it takes to get what they want. Regardless of what it costs not just in terms of dollars or cents, but more of like their dignity. She was trying to catch my eye, constantly, she was wearing a pink top, those that show off your front.She seemed to be in a bit of a tipsy mode, bend forward... lol. And she liked to comb through her ratehr silken and ncie brownish long hair.lol. Hunger? lol. I don't think so. She was about, 22, and she is nice at flirting. lol. Damn, do i look that good for a 17++ dude ? lol. Though it was fun. lol. It really was !!! lol.

The rest of the nigh was smooth. Again, i seem to be catching the eyes of some ratehr decent looking gals. lol. My imagination? maybe.. lol. But when u turn and they turn too, or suddenly start to talk to their friends... lol. Most of them turn once i start talking. lol. Like there is this magnetism in my voice that draws their attention more then the pot or pan that they hold. lol. COOL !! lol. A rather nice end to a nice day. lol.

Oracal : Do you want some candy?
Neo : But you already know if i am going to take the candy or not.
Oracal : Wouldn't be much of an oracal if i didn't!.
Neo : Then how can i make a choice?
Oracal : But you have already made it.
Oracal : You are here to understand why you made it.
*Neo accepts the candy
Neo : So why are you here?
Oracal : thesame reason as you, Neo.
Oracal : I LOve candy.

The Matrix : RELOADED.

Corrination

2004-12-18T01:44:00.000-08:00

Merovigian:Do you know what is the real sourch of power?
Morphous:Choice.
Merovigian:No. Choice is just an illusion, between those who have power and those with out.
Merovigian:The real source of power is the why.
Merovigian:It gives us a sense of purpose.
Merovigian:And it is this purpose that is linked to causality.
Merovigian:Causality, cause and effect, we are all victims to it.

The Matrix:RELOADED

In the end, it is a lie. Choice may not be the real source of power, but yet, it is one of the strongest.

In any situation that one is in, one has that choice. When one is in the midst of a really bad situation, one can choose to either reverse the situation, fall into the trap that the situation has created, or just sit back, relax, and just see what happens. Of Course, there are many other choices that can be made accoring to the situation, but none the less,i will just state these three.

After the Clearmindedness that only a good rest can achieve, i have come to realise that bouts of anger maybe common, even a daily affair for some, but as everyone is unique, in my case, it is more of like a recession of my maturity. An unacceptable degratory emotion, that lowers one's own dignity. The pride of last nigh's radius, a radius that is highly unusal on a train that is during a peak hour, it has faded. No, it has transgrassed. In its metamorphis, it has left quite a few inportant windows open, windows that help me better understand myself, in its wake. Now a shadow of its former self, it longs for it to be given back its prime moments. The longing is great. lol. Almost like the thirst for blood that the Vampires in the movie seemed to experinced. However, it has shown its true nature, its true form, its very shape of exsistance.

It is but an emotion.

It is unlike those monsters and abominations that were shown in the movie. Ture, no doubt, it does have a blood haze like them. It is also highly able to overpower its possesor. However, unlike them, it does not have a physical shape, a form. It is but neurological signals and chemicals that are reacting to the source's commands. The source of which is, myself.

In everyone, there is a battle between the concious mind and the subconscious mind. The Only way to win the war, it to deny it.
Deams are where one is in one's subconcious self. there is where one lives one dark side one's fears, one's dreams.
It is through that tha one learns what not to do in one's conscious state,one's purposed state of in the white.
To deny the war in order to win,one has to deny theose dark urges,desires.To learn from one's mistakes, at least those commited in the dream state.

This sliver of philsophy was revealed to me along time ago. Apparently it needs a bit of addtion to the awake part. lol. None the less, i feel as though i am free, for a while at least of this haze. the clouds have rolled back, the sun shines again. I'll be ok. lol. I always will be. Thank you for your concern My favourite senior,Lynette. It is very comforting to know that. I'm bad at descibing that kinda stuff. lol. the mushy kind. lol. Thanks.

Mr Smith : Why do you persist ? Why Why WHY ?
Mr Smith : Is it for Love? For Peace? For hope?
Mr Smith : Surely you must have seen it by now Mr Anderson.
Mr Smith : Vagaries of human perception.
Mr Smith : The feeble justifications of a human mind trying to justify an esistance which is devoid from neither meaning or purpose.
Mr Smith : WHY WHY WHY ??
Neo : Because i choose to.

The MATRIX : REVOLUTION

A concordance.

2004-12-18T00:39:00.000-08:00

A heap of broken images, where the sun beats
And the tree gives no sheltter, the cricket no relief,
And the dry stone, no sound of water. Only
There is shadow under this red rock,
(come in under the shadow of this red rock),
And i will show you something different from either,
Your Shadow in the morning, striding behind you
Or you shadow in the evening, rising to meet you.
I will show you fear in a handful of dust.

T.S Elliot
The Waste Lands

Some may find it weird as to why i started off with this quote. Its meaning will become clear as we move along.Regardless...

Today was interesting, in the least sense of the word. Awoke rather early, Gum still hurts like a *F*. Still, brushed. Real good. real good... Estacy can come from more then just one way, from just pure joy, or from pure pain. Either way, it should be enjoyed regardless of the method employed.

Went to bowl early, met up with joel.Played like a *S* , the whole day... this time though, was feeling rather pissed during training, it was , in a way, a change from the usual latergicness. It was after the first admissimal game.

Weird, i have not been pissed for a long time.
It was interestingly refreshing.

Emotions that are not used in a long time can be rather amusing when re-awaken. True, no doubt it is said that one has to relase that anger when bowling, it is, as with all sports, not just a physical game, but a mental one too. The funny thing is, as much as i wanted to get rid of it, which wasn't very much, i also wanted to keep it. This cold, unthinking cloak, full of silent screams. Filled with unabaiting howls , inaudiable to any ear. Enclosed in this totally wrong,yet somehow right vortex, one can reach his prime. Many might and should disagree with this, even myself as i type this entry, but yet, yet... Undoubtedly, it hightened my level of concentration, less splits were made, and yet, it was a double edged sword. Many one pins, EASY spares, could and should have had their share of the coverstock. Yet, in this, this, haze, judgement and reasoning were many a time clouded.

The gals noticed. They did. They usually do. Like a baromometer, they are the first to sense the shift in the atmosphere of human emotions, their forte.
Jac: Why today like there is this like rather stressd-up atmosphere?
Mou: I don't know. But i do know that i am pissed.
She left me alone. Good? Bad? I don't know. But what i do know, was that it did help. It did abait the rage. A bit of it. But like a crack addict, the monkey on my back? It just dug harder. It wasn't going to just let go that easily, it was in for the ride.

The score did improve, both scores beating the first by a minimal margine of 30 pins. In fact, they were the best for the whole day. The Second game better then the third. Regardless though, if this was for selection? I'd just galdly give up my place. I know what is *F* and i won't kick up a fuss. U get what u give.

Afterwards, went for lunch/dinner at the golden arcs. Had fun, cooled downed by then. Bishan Chalet! lol. Due to my fantastic vision, i though that we had missed the shuttle. We Didn't.

On board, i met my first three months canoing friend, Angel. She was with her gal firend. I had at frist though that she was, well ... Nvm. If i got it right, woohoo!If i get it wrong, well, man... Either way a Catch 22 is still a Catch 22. It was her who first recognised me, I was too caught up with my conversation and cause i was also caught off guard. I wonder, was it my voice? Most likely. We spoke a few lines,the formalities, She offered Gummy Bears, i declined, i had just had Lunch/Dinner. Then the rest of the trip, we didn't really talk much.

At PS, we went for a movie, Er Mei , Ber and mi. Killed the waiting hour by following Mommy around. Was quite facinated,Spotlight isn't such a boring place after all. Also had a good look around at EURO, Bras and blah blah blah... From the passage way of course.

We then waited for another twenty mins for the commercials. Pepsi ice is... drinkable. Still, it pales to Pepsi blue. We watched BLADE: THRINITY . Nice show, it was comparable with its predecessors. Interesting though, although it does almost follow in its layout as with the first two, one doesn't feel bored. This feat, which HP has FAILED misserably to achieve, should be merit alone to catch this sequal. Hopefully a fourth will appear, though it is highly risky and hence unlikely that it would be done.

On mi way home, i began to recieve a lot of stares. Interestingly, most were from gals. Funny, i believed that by then, the mask of cold fury was on. This i believe could be sensed, most of the commuters on the train gave me a small solitary area.A family who boared, father, mother and a gal, the dad gave me one look and moved his charges into the centre of the train. There was space around me... An intersting experience on a train , at FRI nigh, at 10.30-45pm, Interesting.

Yet, i will not hold on to this anger, knowing what it is, what it does, it is but anoter form of control, like crack. Control from whom one may ask? My answer? Who is the master of Sin? Not to mention one of the 7 most deadly ones?

Fear in a handful of dust? Indeed, fear of what this handul tells about the demon that abodes within. Fear of what it could mean? Ney, i will not, i CANNOT afford the luxury of self-delusion. Fear of what it means.

Lord Jesus! Mi lord GOD, Cleasne this tainted soul of which i am. This silly confounded sheep. Nothing in this world is ever worth a severance from YOU! Not a good day on the lanes, nor a fantastic score. Lord! have Mercy on me. Amen.

The ALPHA

2004-12-16T02:00:00.000-08:00

Ok... lol . FINALLY! i have a blog! lol. TO all you fellows reading this, i thank u so much for u know... reading. lol.

FIRSTLY i must thank Lynette!!!! She's an ANGEL!!! Thank u so much for helping mi with this! u Rock DUDET! THank u sooo much. She's this real nice gal, that i've had the opportunity to meet, suan, joke aound with, ya da ya da ya da... lol.

Thanks BaBe = >

now back to business...

What is the only ever constant? Change... I've learnt that through many diff situatuions and sometimes, it is Welcomed! Sometimes it is not... It is good when u have had a vei bad day on the lanes, definately a changed would be heaven sent!!! [ just like today. lol. mi 2 mei meis would know. and Joel as well. ] after the thing was like realli stonny, stonned all the way home. LITERALLY. the train was veri quiet.
Bad... well... like when your favourit econs teacher , Mrs Jane Chong of NYJC has to leave ya class to teach the J1s..( she got RETAINED !!!! ;) OR when a teacher has to move on...

Recently, MR John Lim of NYJC passed on. Personally i don't know the guy. i onli managed to talk to him once, and that was a wonderful time. REALLI! HE is a realli cool dude! HE's EXTREMELY open-minded, the time i talked to him was before during a PE lesson before my NAFA. We were all doing the "superman" lol. so we began to crap,cause you see we were doing it on the Bball court .. with the hole for the netball post open. lol. and we were all guys there. lol. I'll leave ya to it. lol. ask if u realli can't get what i'm trying to say. Then Mr Sigh was talking abt something about a thermometer. lol. and we managed to convert that too into an "interesting" issue. lol. John Lim was with us there, and he laughed along with us, not stopping us in any manner. Real great guy. Well, i guess this is mi memory of him,a tribute? Neh,i feel that it is just another day to day thing that he does, no biggy, but still i hope that this has not tainted his image to anyone reading this. i may type more but still at this moment in time, i feel it pruden to at least say something abt this man whom i've known so little about but whom i realise does mean somthing to me.

OH! DISCORDIA! The passing of a gunslinger... See u in the clearing at the end of the path ,John Lim.

May GOD Rest his soul, his wife's and the postmaster driver in the other van. AMEN.

OGL workshop day 2

2004-11-30T23:58:00.000-08:00

this time, at least i was in the right attire, just not in the right energy level. who would be at 7.45am when u usually wake like about 4 more hours from that time? lol. Thankfully,the SC had planed some mass games. man they were fun. lol.

We beagn with something like quditch.veri fun. lol. ran up and down the field for a while till the oppositing faction's defence sorta vapourised. then it was like sharolin Soccer. lol. we'd just gather at the goal post and when the goalie threw it out, we'd then just grab and pelt it back. we DEFINATELY WON ! lol.

then we playthe the second one. this was a bit more messy. lol. DEFINATELY. lol. we had to sprint up and down this time. lol. realli fun. eneded up with a rather mud splattered shirt, but it was worth it. lol. we won again !
lol

WE HAVE WON THE WAR ! WE HAVE WON THE WAR ! WE HAVE WON THE WAR ! WE HAVE WON ! lol.

then we had somemore mass games in the hall.Baloon bursting . lol. this one we lost ... dided rather early, casue mi rubber band died on mi not the baloon... pity.. then just cheered with Rui JIe in the sidelines. lol. yep. was fun.

AFter that we had a water break, followed by the tail's game. lol. not too sure about the game's outcome. lol. * by this time, ZALA had PARA as king. rather funni. seeing his expression. lol. one of mock surprise, embarassment, pride, and smiling his usual PARA smile. lol. funni.
we of nazgul were natuarally a bit sianed of it ... hence we crwoned VEERA as our king !! lol. [ casue he was the flag bearer. ]
then it was lunch. we were the first to go down for it. lol. All cause we were bonded enough. Cheered and ya! lol. we were first. we then began to do the usual, cheer as we went. lol. man, we were the best ! lol.

OH WEHN NAZGUL! OH WHEN NAZGUL ! OH WHEN NAZGIL GOES MARCHING IN ! I WANNA BE THE BEST IN SPIRIT ! OH WEHN NAZGUL GOES MARCHIN IN ! ONE MORE TIME ! ;p

Lunch was better i guess ? we had more "liao" more flour instead of fish. lol. but still at least there was more veg.
then we assembled at the hall and cheered. lol. i think. we then did some cheers for a while, then it was time for our dance ! lol.

It was the best. KS managed to make it. GOOD GAL ! lol. we finished the Summer Sunshine. real good stuff ! The couple part was a bit short, but after the tradional dance oh well .. lol. we then went down for a tea break of sorts.

LAter we went for some more games in our group 7 and 8 formations. of course we, 7 ,cheered as we went along .lol. we then played many a game, and had loads of fun, won some, lost some. lol. but still, had real great fun. we would cheer 8 on if we finished early.

Then we had another mass game, cans cans and more cans. lol. did a lot of running. lol. really! scored a few times, [scored= no of times the gals scream when u hit the structure. lol. ]

then we gathered at the hall for some more cheers? i think? reagardless, was begining to sound real hoarse by this time, a fate shared by sammual, Jerry, Rui jie, and many others... the finally, we had the FINAL mass game. it was real messy.
again baloons, but we had to hold hands and the poke around woith sharpt straws. lol. lost a shoe. lol. too hiong , was like ummm... chased by 10++ orange. lol. we also had an alliance with the green. lol. At the end of the melee, we emerged the WINNERS !!! lol. YEAH !!!

After the debrief, we then headed home... i though ... lol.

Ended up having dinner out, with Da Ge[ chris ], Er Mei[ Jac] Ans Siao Mei[ TIna ] at chom chom. it was intersting. we were let off like at 6.30pm plus minus... of us, da ge and er mei were also with mi in the ogl workshop. i shan't bother with the rest of the details... lol. We had Dinner at 7.45pm. lol. It was ok lah, realli, it was enjoyable. I was at it agian. lol. ask jac abt the details or da ge or siao mei. lol.

we ended walking back to school after dinner. lol.

I didn't realise how tired i was till i took a bath. after that , i collpased onto mi bed and was dead to the world. till... lol. abt now... lol. i woke up like at 11.45pm. no idea why too. lol. oh.. throat was begining ot give mi hell ... lol.

OGL workshop Day 1

2004-11-29T09:58:00.000-08:00

The day started out ...well... [ knowing mi,ever the optimist... ] WELL !lol.
I got there on time, then i discoverd that i had dressed wrongly for the event... TOTALLY wrong. lol. everyone were in their PE unis, i, on the other hand, was dressed in mi house tee, and long pants. TOTALLY out . lol. but it was cool, it wasn't mi fault that i wasn't informed on the phone.

i was assigned to group 7, NAZGUL!!! YEAH! I had mi pal, Jerry to accompany mi! lol. YEp! lol. WE crapped ourselves silly. lol. I also have VEera as well. lol. oh mi .. lol . [just kidding] lol. we had like abt 3-5 ruggers, 2 soccer dudes & Rui jie ! THe DB CAp! And if thats not lung power, then i don't know what is .

WE started out with the ice breakers, and boi that was fun; Stupid ... lol. Reckless Rui JIe, VIagria VEera, {I mean!!! Vibrant ! ;), Ordinary Orlinda, Socialble Sherene, Retarded RObson, Kawaiyi Kelvin, Joyful Jerry, Xtra Xue MEi,Boony Boon, Smart SAmmual so on so on, [ Sorry guys if i have left out any of ya names! My memeorry fails mi...] and an ExtraOrdinary Eugene :)

then after we had know each other, in grp 7, we then combined with grp 8, our brothers/sisters and we had one massive game. lol. We would call out a person's name, the person would squat. once the person was down, the other two who were now in each other's view would have to say the other's name. who ever said the other's first, would live. the other squat.lol.
* so i was wondering, what happens if the gals call out something that all the guys have? then all the guys would have to squat right? that would not be not veri fair!lol. then the guys could also do the same... lol An interesting Paradox huh ? lol.
After a while it became rather brutal. call the one next to ya, then say the other's name. lol. veri funni.lol. we ended with 2 survivors. lol. We wanted a pole dance but ... lol.

AFter that, nazgul rosed to its full strength, 7 and 8 and we made our flags. It was jerry , Ker Shin and mi. i had a KL sitting on mi too. lol. Quite fun i must say. then it was lunch...

We had a foretaste of what the army might serve for our meals... rock-hard rice, minimal dishes[highly] and a rather messy chicken wing. [ At this point in thime, i do want to make it clear that i do not blame the SC for any of that, in fact for $6 for 2 days worth? thanks, it was an nice effort. ] then we had the games. lol,

THey were fun Indeed ! we went from station to station and we played quite well, all of us being enthusiastic and all. lol. yep. Then we began to cheer away. Thanks to sherene[ i hope i got it right ... ] we managed to come up with many a cheer.Actually she did. then we cheered and cheered and cheered. lol. not just when it was necseary, but also when we were on the move, OH WHEN NAZGUL, OH WHEN NAZGUL, OH WEHN NAZGUL GOES MARCHING IN, I WANNA BE THE BEST IN SPIRIT, OH WHEN NAZGUL GOES MARCHING IN ! LOL. * ONE MORE TIME! ;p And one of the most interesting cheers, THE QUEST ! lol. i finally got it , its from the LTC right ? lol. Anyway, stop saying THE QUEST! lol. ANd one of the best cheers, AMAZING GRACE, HOW SWEET THE SOUND! ok stop stop! lol. OF COurse we had PEACE BY THE RIVER,LOVE OVER-FLOWING AND LIFE EVER-LASTIN IN OUR SOULS too... and many many many more. lol

Then Came the dance

This was one of the best time yet. the 27th SC made this VERI VERI VERI cool dance, played along with the Song, Summer Sunshine by The Corrs.A fantastic dance, if the J1s don't appreciate it ... lol. I ended Up partnering KEr Shin. lol. MAn that gal can dance! lol. She is rather sporting too, mi arm being too tall for her, she'd try to grab first, hit mi later. lol . on the whole, it realli is some good Stuff. lol. Realli! oh, and we also did the traditional dance too. It was fun, i guess, lol. but i'm sure most , if not all, will agree with me that it was the SummerSunshine that realli blew us away.
* by the way, Hope that the ALLSTAR comes back. that is fun ! lol.

aFter that was home. lol. And i onli realsied how tired i was when i kept misspelling stuff on Msn. lol. found out that mi dance partner had to go for her dental appointment. lol. but [as no gal can reist mi...] so she said she'd try to reschedule. lol.ok then that wraps up day one.

In the heat of summer sundshine, Don't tell mi you have to go...